It'll Always Continue

Very deep

Have you ever sat there and wondered why?

Why is this my fault?

Why did I make him feel this way?

Why am I hurting?

He gets mad at something you didn't even do yet he's the one that lets out his rage on you

It isn't the first and my darling...it isn't the last

He will do it again and again and in your head in that moment you think it'll never end

You hold the baby in your arms thinking he won't strike

But he's just like EVE so he took a bite

You're quiet

You have no emotion

You don't have anyone to hold onto so you let it soak in your mind just for it not to be a commotion

You feel hopeless and alone but isn't he the one that's supposed to make you feel whole?

You're no saint because you sit there and spew vicious words that you can't contain in the wake of all the chaos

You've laid one finger and my god do you wish you can take that back

Because every time he strikes you wish it was your last

You're a mom and a great one at that

So why do you stay with someone who mentally attacks?

"You're fine"

"You're just trippin"

So you sit there and hope that you don't catch him slippin again

"It's just a shove get over yourself"

Little do they know that you're crying out for help

You're scared and scarred from the one before and you pray to god every day that he is the man that you seek and adore

You pray it's him and in your mind and heart he is, but does he feel the same way about you?

His actions speak louder than words like it's beating into the air like loud screeches

You stay

You love him

"It's going to be okay"

"We're going to be an amazing family"

Keep telling yourself that and you'll find out something one day that you'll never forget