Tortured Soul

I lost a lot to her

god damn it
what happened.
where did it go so wrong
I wish I could let you go, but I cant.
i love you but you hate me and I dont even know why.
I miss yor touch, I miss your kisses.
I miss that day.
the first day.
as I held you and you held me
shielding each other from the wind and the rain
holding you close
so close,
and then,
just that one little kiss,
on my neck,
it was the best moment of my life
I almost collapsed.

then when I read it, I broke, my heart, crushed,
my heart which I gave you dropped.
no you threw
the pain, oh god you cant imagine the pain.
I went crazy with agony,
youre voice,
so cold, so empty,
so void of emotion.
as I begged for forgivness for my unknown sin ,you mocked me.
I cried over you and you mocked me.
how can you ate me so much?
what did I do?

I miss the way we used to be.
when I loved you and you loved me.
A lover lost
a friend lost
you were afraid it would ruin it, and you were right.
I miss you so much.