I am so lost.
What went wrong?
An entire year I spent, happy for the most part untill now.
Untill out of nowhere she came, she made me trust her, reveal things id reaveled to no one
I made myself vulnerable
And then this,
Now I find myself in pieces
I look around, trying to find that one person that I could tell anything to
The one that could make everything right.
And then I remember,
As I fell,
From the top of the world,
That she,
Was the one that pushed me.
I have found myself in the same situation, i was asking how on earth did i get here? I think it was because of all the absense of God and me ignoring him, its probably totally different for you, i don't know your story and i probably wont because that is for you, but i know it has to do with our surroundings how we are acting and who we hang out with.
Here I see the anger in your other work, put in its proper place, perhaps. I wondered where it came from, and wondered if you had ever written about it. We have all been hurt by someone. For the first 24 years of my life I knew nothing but hurt from other people. It is only in the last four years that I have known anything of love or care from another human being. I was the one everyone stepped on and mistreated. Finally, my ex husband nearly beat me to death. Did I let him (or any of THEM) break me, stop me from the ability to love anyone at all? Did I make him a catalyst by which I learned to hate everyone? NO. One has to take the responsibility for their own feelings and actions, and make a pact with oneself not to let others bring them down or make them hate. I don't know who you are, or what all you have been through, but when I saw the anger in your work I wanted to read the rest and tell you... it will not always be this way. Things change, and usually at some point, for the better. I am guessing you are young? You have an excellent vocabulary, and you know how to express yourself. I hope that writing is helping you to work through the anger. I know that it did me.
Azrael is not one I associate with much anymore, the few people that know both me and "him" should consider themselves very lucky that ive let them so close.
Azrael, is a very dark entity, "the ang.. more..