Breaking My Silence And Speaking Out

Just to let you all know. Physically: I'm fine, Mentally: I'm not doing well at all. I've been an emotional wreck lately. I honestly don't know how long I can keep this up. Mentally, I'm getting worse and worse every day. There's no way in hell I'm going back to Prairie St. John's

I rather go somewhere else. I literally feel like I want to scream. Hearing voices and music in my head, having very impulsive thoughts, losing my mind, I'm about ready to break. Top much anxiety, too much depression, and too much borderline personality disorder! I honestly don't know what to do anymore. I know I promised myself I was going to to post mental health stuff anymore, but I can't keep that promise today. I'm breaking my silence. I feel like I want to leave my apartment and never come back. I feel like I want to just go on a walk and disappear. I'm tired of being this way. I'm tired of getting mad easily. I'm tired of everything. I have so much rage in me, and I'm tired of it. I can't take any of this anymore. I wish people would follow the guidelines to get rid of Covid so I could get some help I desperately need. I cry myself to sleep every night hoping that something would change. I'm sorry if this worries everyone, but it had to be said.