Tiff

Hey Tiff,

I don't think you'll ever see this and maybe that's a good thing.

It's been years since we've even seen each other, much less been in a relationship.

It's funny how fast time goes by. 

I just wanted to say I missed you and I'm sorry I never really got to give you a goodbye.

That's the very least I owed you. You deserved so much more.

I actually think I'm going to go ahead and say this since you probably won't see this, or even care if you did.

I love you still.

I'm so sorry that I couldn't be better for you and give you what you needed and deserved.

I miss you so much.

God damnit, I wish I could still wake up beside you, smothered in your hair.

I wish so bad that I could eat your pancakes with peanut butter on them with you again.

I miss your voice. I miss how you smell. I miss your sweet smile and your hazel eyes.

Funny how I remember your eyes and no one else's.

You've become this voice in my head that tell's me when I'm being stupid or too emotional like always.

You're the hole in my life that I can't fulfill. That I can't find anything to fit in because it's shaped just for you.

I know over time we've both changed a lot, and that's good. You've grown into who you want to be and I'm proud of you.

I want you to reach your goals still. To be that pediatrician, if that's even still what you want to be.

I'm sorry for all the fights.

I'm sorry I didn't try harder to hold on to you.

I'm sorry that I hurt you so much.

I have loved you from that day in the girls locker room in middle school, when I first saw you, first met you. I have loved you ever since I heard the way my name sounded coming out of your mouth because it is something I have never forgotten and I don't think I ever will. You are the epitome of beauty and the only meaning of love that I know.

I miss you.

Damnit Bryson I love you.

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[wordman]

well this is heart felt,but i guess a little late,or maybe hoping he will see it and re kindle a lost love..

i bet many on here can relate to this feeling