I saw a lot of life in you.

    I'm just shy of eighteen, but inside, I'm still that boy you left behind years ago. That disease stole who you were away from me when I was just a boy in the 5th grade. After the surgery and when your treatment was at its worst, my days screamed isolation. A black hole replaced your warmness at a place that no longer felt like home, and the happiness was sucked out of all of us. You spent weeks at a time in the hospital, and those were the weeks when my little 11 year old heart was breaking, crumpling under the horror of seeing you covered in IVs, weighing nearly half of what you used to. Your eyes sunk in, and you were the skeleton of someone I used to know so well. Holding your hand terrified me, but oh how it was to hold the hand of a fighter, such a fighter. But those fights, I think, made you lose your joy. Too much fighting made you forget what you were fighting for, and sometime during it all, you lost who you were. Cancer did not just eat away at your body; it devoured everything you were to me. And now every day as I head out to school, I half smile, half wave to this woman that used to be "mom."

Reviews

[Charlie]

Incredibly touching, and frightening in it's raw feeling.
The horror of seeing something like this at such a young age must be unbearable. If this is personal experience, I am truly sorry.

Beautiful and haunting in it's brevity, a wonderful, saddening write.

I can not wait to see more from you.

[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

A very emotional stark moving write written from you the young child’s perspective
Thanks so much for sharing this
Look forward to reading more

[alanwgraham]

Well done for this story. How tough must it be for a kid to watch his mother wasting away and then losing her forever. If this is based on your own experience well done for sharing.
All the best,
Alan

[Zoya]

This is so full of emotions...It made me smile and at the same time left me teary-eyed. I loved it. Keep writing!

[Northern Woman]

Oh my goodness. This is one of the most amazing things that I've ever read. In some ways I can relate to you. All that I can tell you is that I'm sorry and that you aren't alone :)

[Vertigoingnowhere]

wow this is great i love this :D mind checking out some of my stuff? thanks

[Wolfwind]

To go through this at such a young age would have been extremely hard. I don't know what I would have done in your shoes. It was hard enough when I lost one my own children. But to be the child and have a parent fade away like that. I just couldn't envision the emotions.

Aaron

[piggy]

thats very very sad to read
so it must have been well written