As if 2 years were like it was just Yesterday

As if it were 2 years ago

my brother had been happy

sleeping in the basement 

and playing video games

headsets on

game in x-box 

clicking buttons out of frustration

the loud voice you would hear 

from the basement 

when he was angry when he had failed

The bowl of Goldfish crackers would just be set next to him

2 peanut butter sandwiches had been stacked on that bowl and the rest remain

After school he would have that smile that I would never see again

It was no ordinary smile, it was a special smile of joy and laughter

then it became a smile that said deep down 

"I'm hurt,help, me." 

And now as I dare walk down those stairs, it is silence and darkness.

Where his body use to lay made a dent in the couch, like he evaporated from the earth

Now what is left is his controllers that lie everywhere, 

and the headsets that have not been touched in ages.

When I look at those simple objects

it reminded me of the games; Halo, Gears of War etc.

I remember walking down the carpet covered stairs,  getting pajamas

walking past him as he concentrated, my brother telling me to "watch out or I can't see" in a non-mean way

but as I look at the couch the air is saying "You can walk by"

and as if 2 years were like it was yesterday.