Into HellA Story by AurafiexA murder victim awakens to the fate that awaits her. A story set in the City of Midnight.I. I awoke with a massive headache, sitting on a
small wooden boat that made soft creaking noises as it traversed its path
towards a destination unknown. It was a boat sailing upon a river, a river with
water that was pitch black like the night sky overhead. Were it not for the
eerie red glow of the floating lanterns upon its ichor-like surface and the
gentle swaying of the rickety contraption I sat upon precariously, it would
have seemed like I was amidst an endless void in a world of darkness. My blouse
and skirt reeked of dried blood, and there was a sharp pain that wracked my
chest constantly as I drew in the faint scent of incense into my lungs with
every breath of foul air. The urge to scream welled up strongly within me, but
my throat found nothing to convey my fear, as if resigned to whatever fate
awaited me. Steering the boat was a girl that appeared a few years my
junior. Standing at the front of the boat, she appeared unshaken, barely fazed
by the darkness she was navigating us through as if it was all part of a
routine. Dressed in a black kimono streaked with flower patterns that were
crimson like the colour of blood, she cut a menacing figure in the darkness,
further accentuated from the eerie red glow surrounding the river. Her back was
turned from me, looking ahead as she navigated the dark waters with a long
paddle that seemed twice her height that she, or even I, should have been
barely capable of wielding, let alone use with such skill. I watched her silently for a few moments, trying to make sense
of the situation I was in. My last memory was that of having supper at
Mikasaki’s Burgers, fiddling with my phone as I sipped on a strawberry
milkshake. It was then and there, for less than split second as I drank my
milkshake, that I felt a change in the wind as my breath gave way to darkness.
The world around me faded to black, as if I was being whisked away. But what really
got my attention was her, the same girl that now steered the boat I was now a
passenger of. For the briefest moment then when I closed my eyes, I caught a
glimpse of her with a frightening clarity as she stared down upon me
passionlessly with soulless, red eyes, as if in preparation to take my soul. “Where am I?” I found myself demanding of her after mustering
the courage to speak, shouting despite the anxiety of my new surroundings. “Hell,” she replied after what seemed to be an eternity of
awkward silence. “Not yet,” she continued, correcting herself soon after.
“Soon.” “W-what?” I exclaimed, only to be met with dead silence once
more as once more, she focused entirely on paddling. I slapped myself as hard
as I could. Nothing changed. I was still here with her, on this boat, to a
destination unknown. One moment I was having supper, and now this? The thought
of it was utterly crazy, almost unbelievable. As we sailed in silence once more I stared at the brackish
waters, watching the fiendish red lanterns upon its surface in both fear and
awe. And as I watched them float silently in the darkness, my thoughts wandered
to my dad. I wondered if he knew what was happening to me right now, as insane
as it all was. Perhaps he would just think that I had gone missing, kidnapped,
maybe. But there was no way he would ever believe this, assuming I could even
snap out of this craziness and go home, like it was all a mere nightmare from
falling asleep at the burger bar. I had promised them that I would be back by
ten, and I even promised my dad a chocolate milkshake. Now, I was not even sure
if I could get home. If only dad was here with me. Perhaps he would know what
to do. He usually does, as crazy as it is. I wondered if he would come looking
for me if he knew what was happening. I wish he would. I really do, even if in
my heart of hearts, I could not say the same. “Don’t,” a voice rang out into the darkness, seemingly
addressed towards me from the girl in the black kimono. I looked away from the
brackish river and looked at her. She was still facing away from me, looking
onward, still paddling. “Lost forever,” she added with a swish of her kimono’s
sleeve, pointing a pale finger towards the brackish water all around us, “You’ll
be.” I gripped the edges of the boat as tightly as I could, fearing
for my life, if life was even a thing here. I closed my eyes and felt its
rough, weather-beaten surface upon my palms as I tried to attune my thoughts
with the gentle sway of the boat as we sailed onward towards our destination.
It was strange, how doing that gave me such comfort, despite everything else. II. How long has it been? An hour? Many hours, maybe days? Weeks?
I do not know. It feels like an eternity. Many eternities, if that is even
possible. Time, I discovered, much to my chagrin, made no sense whatsoever in
this realm. But one thing was for sure- the scent of incense was getting
stronger with every waking moment, to the point that I could see it manifest in
the form of a that smothered the darkness in ghastly grey smoke that appeared
to be coming from somewhere, that somewhere most likely being my destination. But after what seemed to be an eternity of sailing on the
dark, endless expanse of Hell, I caught sight of a massive torii that stood out
in the darkness like a scarlet beacon, illuminated from all sides by a cluster
of those fiendish red lantern lights that I had come to both adore for their
light and dread for the seemingly endless path they lit. The torii was the kind
you would see at those old temples run by shrine maidens and holy men and
perhaps this one also led to something similar.
Come to think of it, we used to visit a shrine with a gate
much like this with my mom and dad. The name of the shrine escapes me, having
never been there in years, but we used to go there when I was still in
elementary school. We, or should I say, my mother, would pray every year until
one day, when I was about to begin middle school, she left us without a word.
We stopped going after that. The boat began to slow down as we approached what appeared to
be the end of the line, for red lanterns that once lighted our path in a
straight line were now clustered all around a stone platform of sorts where
wooden boats, much like the one we were on, were docked, floating in the dark waters
as though forsaken and without purpose. Upon reaching this stone platform did our voyage finally come
to an end. I watched quietly with bated breath as she squatted to moor the
boat, wondering what awaited me ashore. With seemingly little effort, the girl
in the black kimono stepped off the boat and onto the stone platform. Turning
to face me, she extended a pale, bony hand to help me off the boat. Grasping it
with one had with the other clutching the side of my chest, I nearly fell into
the brackish waters, taken aback at the frigidity of her grasp, were it not for
her iron grip keeping me. It felt was as if a chunk of ice was suddenly thrust
into my palms, and even after I got onto the stone platform and released myself
from her grip, my right hand was still shaking uncontrollably. “Go there,” the girl in the black kimono said to me, a bony
finger pointing towards where the incense was coming from. I wanted to protest,
but some unknown force within me was compelling to obey and without even
realizing it, my feet were slowing shuffling me towards her dictated direction,
as if a part of me was no longer my own. Without looking back, I ventured forth
towards my new destination. It was just as well anyway- that girl was really
creeping me out. Compared to that ordeal of a boat ride, the walk was so much
shorter and for that alone, it felt so much better even if it meant having to
limp every step of the way while carefully clutching my chest to deal with the
pain that wracked my every breath and step. Eventually, perhaps by sheer
desperation or perseverance, I made my way to my destination where a small,
red-roofed shrine stood before me, wreathed in a seemingly impenetrable cloak
of incense smoke. I held my breath as I limped through the thick wall of smoke.
Despite my best efforts to hold my breath, I was coughing violently at the end
of it, collapsing onto the floor like a ragdoll as my chest tore me asunder, so
much so that it felt like my soul was going to cough itself out of my flesh. It was then, as I lay crumpled upon the stone floor, that I
saw a smiling old man hunched over me with his hand reaching out to me. Taking
his wrinkled warmth into mine, I was pulled up with an unnaturally strong, yet
gentle grip. “Ah, another one, I see,” he said as he helped me up. “Welcome,
Kurosaki Aya, o’ pitiful shadow, bound in sinful karma. I hope Styx didn’t
scare you too much on the way here. She takes this thing way too seriously if
you ask me.” “Where am I? And how do you know my name?” I asked, looking
the old man in the eye the best I could. Standing face to face with him now, he
was nothing unlike the girl in the black kimono I had spent a seemingly
eternity’s worth of voyage. Dressed in a brown haori with a cloth cap resting
on his bald head, he was nothing like the ghoulish figure that Styx was. His
skin was tanned and weather-beaten, and he was all smiles despite the gloom. “I’ve been expecting you. Come, follow me,” he said,
disregarding my confusion with a wave of his hand as he began walking towards
the shrine, towards the source of the fog. “All will be revealed, in time,
little Aya.” “Just who exactly are you?” I shouted as I tried to keep pace
with him, “Are you the devil?” “No,” he replied flatly, turning to face me. “She’s been dead
for a long time. You can call me Mara, or grandpa. Doesn’t matter, really.” I followed Mara along the stone path, trying my best to keep
up with his surprisingly quick steps. As I struggled to limp alongside his
increasingly quick stride, I could not help but notice that all around the
stone walkway was a rather well-kept garden with flower bushes and trees that
one would see in any temple. Were it not for the gloom, I dare say it would
have been a very beautiful place to hang around. The red door of the temple opened with a creaking that
betrayed its age despite the old man’s best efforts at maintenance. Watching
him take off his shoes, I quickly did so as well, doing my best to keep up with
his rapid movements as we transitioned from the cold stone path to what
appeared to be a prayer hall of sorts. “Tell me, Aya, do you know why you’re here?” Mara asked. “Not really…” I replied. Truth be told, despite everything, I
had no idea why I was even here, in this weird place, sailing on that hellish
boat, meeting these strange people. It was almost like something out of a
nightmare, the unreality to what was reality to me. “I just want to go home.” “I see,” Mara remarked dryly. “Come,” he commanded, leading me
by the hand as we walked deeper into the prayer hall, which turned out to be
much larger than I had expected based on its dingy, tiny exterior. Looking
around with each step, I noticed that it was completely dark save for the large
number of meticulously arranged wax candles that burned like beacons of light
in the absolute dark, lighting the way forward and revealing the temple’s
interior in a dim light that made everything around me give off a blurry vibe
as they faded in and out of sight, flickering constantly between light and
darkness. It was as if the world around me was constantly shifting between
existence and non-existence. There were a great many things that piqued my
interest, though I dared not move from where I was standing, given the
uncertainty of my surroundings and circumstances ever since awakening in this
hellish world. There were many things to behold, but what truly captured my
attention in this temple grew clearer and clearer as its frame of polished gold
shone and flickered in the light of the candles’ flame against the darkness. At
a size almost double, possibly triple of mine to the point that it towered over
my frame all the way up to the ceiling, it was a golden statue of a creature
that, despite its humanoid and feminine appearance, was indescribably
monstrous, yet glowered over me with an unfathomable alien beauty. Words fail
to describe its form, but it struck me as something of an amalgamation between
a mermaid, a spider and a young woman, likely only a few years older than I. Before
its golden magnificence was a massive pot of comparatively dull brass filled with
burning joss sticks, each one standing as if to placate the monster while
acting as the source of the fog outside as the streaks of grey emerged from its
metallic frame, filling the temple and flowing out of the door. “Come, closer, o’ pitiful shadow, bound in darkness,” the old
man said, encouraging me forward towards the horrifyingly beautiful idol.
“Breathe deeply of her deathly incense and remember who you once were, Aya
Kurosaki.” “Amon…” It was a name that made no sense to me, a word unfathomable
and yet at this very moment it rolled off my tongue like it was a name I had
known all my life. Beholding her alien and lustrous splendor, I could not help
but prostrate myself before her shimmering frame, kowtowing to beg for
salvation. And my prayers were answered, it seemed, for I felt the irresistible
urge to draw closer towards the brass pot. I closed my eyes, and at her behest,
I breathed deeply and partook of its fumes, those same fumes I had once so
desperately tried to avoid breathing. Embracing them at long last, I filled my
lungs and every fiber of my being to the brim. The pain that enveloped my chest
was smothered entirely by the sensory overload taking place in my brain and
soon, I collapsed onto the floor, smiling as everything faded to black. I
should have been afraid, but a part of me knew that all this was happening for
a reason. III. “What took you so long? You retarded or something?” Ai
sneered, smiling wickedly at the sweat-drenched mess that was Mayumi, whose
hands trembled anticipation as she held three paper cups filled with our
beverages precariously with her hands, as if expecting a beating at any moment. “Hey, lay off, she’s had enough,” Sayaka said, a look of
annoyance on her face towards Ai. “And besides,” she added, turning to me with
half a grin on her face, “She’s way faster compared to last time, ain’t she,
Aya?” “Perhaps, you’ve been a pretty good girl, Mayumi,” I said,
snatching my drink out of Mayumi’s trembling hands, eyeing her with mild
amusement. After all, no one would come to her aid in the darkness that was the
back of the school building. “By the way…” “Mayumi, are you stupid?” I was cut off mid-sentence as Ai rushed towards Mayumi, pinning
her against the grey wall of the school building as her cup fell to the floor,
its orange contents spilling all over the concrete and the grass. Apparently,
from the way she was shouting, she was angry that her drink was not the soda
she had asked for. It was a stupid reason, possibly not even one at all. If
anything, she simply wanted an excuse to hit her. “Don’t do this! You’re gonna hurt her real bad!” Sayaka said,
her hand on Ai’s shoulder in a bid to get her to back off from Mayumi, whose
crumpled form watched me in abject terror. “I know that, damn you! Its just that this stupid w***e keeps
messing with me! I told her so many times that I want a soda and she keeps
getting me orange juice! She’s probably aware and wants to piss me off!” “Damn it, Ai, stop it, stop this right now! Stop, or I’ll tell
Mishimoto-sensei about this!” Sayaka shouted. “Come on, Aya, don’t just gawk,
damn it!” They were looking at me, all three sets of their eyes, each expecting
something different from me. Watching, waiting and judging me for my actions to
come, or lack thereof. “That’s enough, Ai. If you hurt her she won’t be able to pay
up!” I stated matter-of-factly, placing my hand firmly on her shoulder. It was
a middle ground that I hoped would appeal to the two of them. It was difficult
at times, choosing between Ai and Sayaka. But thankfully that convinced her to back
off. Cursing silently under her breath, she shoved Mayumi aside like a ragdoll
before taking a few steps back. “Th… thank you, Aya… I ah…” Mayumi stuttered, clutching her
arms close to her chest as she regained her footing. “Anyway, as I was saying, downtown, 9pm, tonight. You better
show up with the money.” I said, placing my arms on her shoulders as I squeezed
them tightly while I drew her face closer to mine, smiling as I took in her
fearful expression with my eyes. “Yes… of course…” From the look on her face it may have very well been that she
was staring down death itself. Laughing, I could not help but smile at the
terror I was able to inspire within her with just a smile and a few words.
“We’ll have some fun together, the four of us.” I added as I released my grip
on her shoulders, allowing her to scurry off like a terrified mouse. “You’re not gonna hurt her then, right?” Sayaka asked. “Maybe, maybe not…” Ai sneered, leaning against the wall, arms
crossed as she eyed Sayaka with a look that betrayed her disdain at the latter. I sipped my drink in quiet contemplation as the two of them
argued for the rest of recess. It was strange, to be honest, to even consider
that back in elementary school, at what seemed to be a much different life,
they were the best of friends. Things were so much simpler back then, we never
fought or argued, and never was I ever forced to choose between the two of them
until we met Mayumi. Looking back, it started out simple enough. Requests to
buy drinks from the vending machine during recess, followed soon after by
requests to copy her assignments and homework. Eventually, she even agreed to
fork over some money every week. It started out small, but we were now living
well thanks to her, for on top of what we got as allowance from our parents, we
had an on-demand piggy bank that squealed money at our behest. It was never a
question about how Mayumi could get so much money, but she had her ways, even
if those ways would hurt her. But it did not matter so long as she paid up,
even she became thinner with every passing day with bruises on her arms. One
time, she even came to school with a black eye. She spoke little to begin with,
and eventually, everyone was afraid of talking to her. They said she was a
thief and a liar and that she smelled bad and was ugly and it seemed like
everyone, even her parents, thought so. The teachers tried to help initially
but gave up when she never squealed, for she seemed to fear us more than death
itself. The money was really good. Ai liked the extra money a lot,
being once unable to even afford lunch every day without borrowing money from
us to coming to school wearing all manner of branded goods like she was a
walking mannequin at one of those fancy boutiques she could only look by from
the windows with great jealousy. Sayaka on the other hand refused it all on
principle, saying that she’d rather starve than eat poisoned cake, whatever
that meant. And as for me, I once enjoyed the money as Ai did, but now, it no
longer felt as good as it once did. One time, I remember shopping with Ai with
our weekly windfall and I left the mall with nothing in hand. It just did not
feel right, as crazy as it sounds. Since that day, I took to saving it instead,
to buy dad a new refrigerator. The one we had was, after all, always breaking
down to the point that it might as well be a shelf instead. Mayumi was loaded, it seemed, or at least she had some way of
getting those obscene sums of money we demanded of her. She had to, considering
that the one time she did not, Ai made it such that she had to come to school
on crutches for an entire month. She told everyone, even the teachers, with a
sheepish, fearful smile, that she had fallen down the stairs. Ever since then,
she paid up on time, keeping up with our requests, no matter how obscene. Sayaka was against it on principle, and she tried to convince
me so, much to the endless chagrin of Ai, of what she saw as weakness. Sayaka
would have told the teachers, but a part of her held back, a part of her
consisting of equal parts naiveté and insanity, for I knew that she held a
glimmer of hope within her that one day, she could convince us to be like we
once were. I considered her words seriously, but Ai seemed to relish every
second of it as she pushed someone weaker around, finding triumph in taking
what she wanted from someone who could barely defend herself. And truth be
told, I too, felt that same relish whenever we pushed her around. It felt good
to be powerful, even if being powerful meant being awful to someone who did not
deserve it. And it was for that reason that Sayaka’s words struck a chord in
me, and why, despite all my greed and desire, I tried to hold Ai back when she,
as what Sayaka would say, was going too far. Were we truly going too far? I would give a thousand
justifications, as Ai would. But in my heart of hearts, I was not too sure. IV. We met later that night, at Mikasaki’s Burgers. Ai had yet to
arrive, having texted us that she would be late. Without her, it was almost
like the three of us were friends, simply hanging out, enjoying a meal together
as friends would. And when that came to mind as I bit into my double
cheeseburger, I could not help but wonder if t was right to feel that way. “Woah, slow down!” Sayaka teased, smiling at Mayumi as the
latter wolfed down two cheeseburgers right before our very eyes. “You’ll choke
if you keep on like this!” Sayaka had bought Mayumi a meal despite my reluctance to do
so. Two, actually, as well as some of her french fries. It was the right thing
to do, she argued, after Mayumi had refused to order anything when Sayaka
collected our orders, saying that she had no money for food. A part of me
wanted to say no, but another part of me kept that part of me quiet as I found
myself ordering a large chocolate sundae for the three of us to share. Eventually, however, like the advent of reality, Ai showed up,
swaggering up to our table in a plated miniskirt, tight-fitting blouse and high
heels as we ate the chocolate sundae I had ordered. “You eat like a pig, Mayumi!” Ai sneered as she took a seat
beside me, spoon in hand as she helped herself to the sundae. The moment this
happened, Mayumi froze up, watching me in fear, as if hoping I would do
something. What that something was, unfortunately, was unclear to me. “Fancy that you’d say that, Ai!” Sayaka retorted as she
observed our silence to Ai’s arrival. “I mean, that tight fitting blouse isn’t
doing your belly any favours!” “Oh, Sayaka, I didn’t know you liked pigs like Mayumi so
much!” “It’s also why I hang out with you, Ai.” “Why, you…” “Okay, cut it out, you two!” I said, waving my non-spoon
holding hand to punctuate my point. “Now that we’re all here, Mayumi?” I said,
turning to Mayumi, who was still crestfallen, stretching my hand towards her.
She eyed me for a brief second, unsure of what to say or do, until she realized
what I meant. Digging frantically into her bag, she pulled out a white envelope
and passed it to me with both hands. “Thank you, Mayumi.” I said, ignoring Ai’s grin and Sayaka’s
scowl as I opened the envelope to count the money stuffed within it. “I… ah… I’m sorry, Aya. Its all I can scrape together on such
a short notice… I’ll get you the rest next Monday, I… I promise!” Mayumi spluttered
as she watched me count the bills within one after another. “Hmph,” Ai sneered, “Worthless, like usual. Not that you
didn’t know that a long time ago.” “Hey, money’s money. Isn’t that all you care about, Ai?”
Sayaka replied curtly, an edge of disgust towards me and Ai in her words. “So, ah… can I go now?” Mayumi whimpered, watching me with
pleading eyes. “No, we’re not done here. Follow me.” Gripping her by the arm, we left the burger bar and walked for
a few minutes amidst the crowded nightlife until we reached a dark alley. There,
Ai explained to her what she had to do, and as she did it, I noticed her smile
with great relish as the expression on Mayumi’s face soured into a deep frown. “Are… ah… are you sure about this?” “Yes,” Ai commanded, smiling wickedly. “Go out there and find
a guy. Any guy, so as long as he goes on a date with you. Make sure he pays.” “I can’t do this…” Mayumi whimpered once again, like she
always did. “True, you might not be good enough. But these pigs don’t have
very high standards!” Ai laughed. “Right, Aya?” She added, nudging me with her
elbow. I was about to reply, but I saw the anger in Sayaka’s eyes and I kept my
mouth shut. “You don’t have to.” Sayaka interjected, glaring at the both
of us as she offered her hand to Mayumi. “Come on, Mayumi, follow me. We don’t
need to be a part of this madness.” “I’ll beat you if you listen to that dumb w***e!” Ai warned,
raising a fist towards Mayumi. “Don’t listen to her! Aya? Don’t just stand silently! Don’t
let Ai have her way with this! She’s crazy, and you know it!” Sayaka shouted at
me, almost pleading, hoping that I would take her side. And I really wanted to,
but at that very moment, I felt completely powerless, almost like Mayumi, as
she stared at me in desperation. “...” Their eyes were all upon me, expecting me to say
something in their favor. But when that time came, I could do naught but stand
there, deathly silent, as though I was but a ghost observing everything fall
apart. “There,” Ai declared as they beheld my silence. “Aya’s with me
on this one, Sayaka.” Turning to Mayumi, she pushed her forward towards the
glaring lights of the crowded. “Just do it, god damn you!” “I…” Mayumi stuttered disappointedly, now looking fearfully at
the two options before her. And it was then that she caved. No offer of safety
that Sayaka could promise was good enough, it seemed. “Mayumi…” Sayaka uttered. She would never admit it, but even
in my despondence I could sense the defeat in her voice. “I’m sorry, Sayaka…” she croaked as she wandered out onto the
busy street, as Ai had commanded. Finally beaten, Sayaka stormed off into the dark
alley, cursing under her breath, seemingly equal parts furious and disappointed. Wandering onto the street, Mayumi stood there in a daze,
seemingly mortified as the noise and crowds threatened to consume her in a
tidal wave of human traffic. It was then, as I stood with Ai, watching from the
darkness, that she bumped into a man that appeared in his mid-thirties or so. It
was too noisy, and we could barely make out what they were saying in the
crowded pavement, but we could see their lips moving in conversation. He said
something to her, and she said something, but then she screamed and took to the
alley where we waited when he tried to embrace her. “I… I can’t do this, Aya, Ai, I’m so sorry! I’ll do anything
else, I swear!” Mayumi shrieked, panting as if she had seen a ghost. “It’s alright,” Ai, sneered. “Didn’t think you had it in you.
Not that it matters,” she laughed, shoving her phone in front of Mayumi’s face.
“Twenty thousand yen, next Monday. Or I’ll send this to the teachers and your
parents. They’ll know how much of w***e you truly are!” Looking at Ai’s phone, it was a picture so expertly taken at
the right moment where the man had drawn Mayumi in for a hug, taken right
before she had fled in utter terror, so much so that it made it seem like she
was embracing him like they were lovers. They say a picture speaks a thousand
words, and at that moment it seemed to be so, for what it had to say left
Mayumi in tears as we left her in that dark alley, alone and broken. I did not hear from Mayumi for the rest of the week. She had
taken ill, the teachers said and as a result she was apparently resting at
home. It was not until after school on Monday when I received a message from
her, telling me that she had the twenty-thousand yen ready. She owed us only
half, of course, but that little persuasion had gone a long way to doubling
that amount. “I can’t believe you’re doing this. This is low, even for
you.” Sayaka remarked as Ai showed her the photographs she had taken the
previous week while we waited for Mayumi. “If you had even a shred of
conscience left, you’d delete those photos right now.” “Oh, and how will I convince her to pay up on time? By saying
please and thank you?” Ai sneered in reply. “Well, maybe you can try being a decent human being for once,
and stop pushing her for money?” Sayaka shouted, banging her fist on the table
so loudly that for a moment, everyone in the bar turned to look at us. “I’ve
had enough of this. I’m disappointed with the both of you, especially you, Aya.
I thought you were better than this.” “Guess you were wrong, huh?” Ai retorted, smiling triumphantly
in the face of Sayaka’s anger. “You’re a coward, just like Mayumi. Why else did
you leave her like that back there?” “I guess you’re right…” Sayaka remarked, staring at the
window, as she averted Ai’s gaze, seemingly defeated in spirit. “I am a coward.
But not anymore. I’m going to tell the principal about this. I was a fool to
truly think that the two of you would stop someday, and that by hanging around
I’d be able to keep things in check. No
longer, Ai.” And with that, she stormed out of the burger bar. “Wait!” Before I could say anything, Ai had rushed out of the door as
well, following in her wake as she tried to reason with Sayaka, for whatever
good that could possibly do now, given how things had turned out. As for me, I
was all alone now, waiting for Mayumi to show up as she had promised. I looked at my phone. It was five minutes past ten now and
Mayumi had yet to arrive. It was unlike her to be late, considering what had
happened the last time she was. Even now, if you look close enough, you could
still see that line slanted across her left cheek even though it was months
ago. And it was then, as I fiddled with my phone, surfing the
internet as I sipped on a strawberry milkshake, that I felt something sharp and
painful in chest. Turning around in shock and horror, I saw Mayumi smiling for
the first time in what seemed to be forever, hopped up on malignant courage.
Looking at her, I wondered why. And for the briefest, most terrifying moment
then, I saw the dull, bloody glimmer of her courage as she plunged it right
into my chest once more, over and over, as if stuck in an endless loop,
laughing with each strike as if she was trapped in a mad rhythm. I wanted to do
something, anything but I was too slow. I fell to the floor, clutching my chest
as I gasped desperately for air while the pain tore me asunder. People all
around me were screaming and shouting, but their words were but loud,
unintelligible cries as I lay on the floor, broken and bleeding. In my last waking moments, I saw Mayumi to be no different
from me as she lost grip of her newfound courage, as it clanged uselessly onto
the floor, far from her reach as people rushed in to restrain her. And at that
very moment, we were both frozen in terror, afraid of what was done and what
was to come. V. The sharpness of the blow and the many that came after jolted
me from my incense-induced trance. I awoke once more to find myself kowtowing
with my head bent towards the floor as if in deep prayer. Before me stood Mara
and the statue of the dread god whose fumes brought remembrance, the former
smiling while the latter glowered at me with alien, seemingly divine
indifference. Taking Mara’s hand into mine once more, I got back up on my
feet, groaning in pain as the pain returned to my chest once more. We stood in
silence for what seemed to be an eternity, my eyes on his as he smiled, as if
waiting patiently for me to say something. “So, I’m…” I stuttered, trying my best despite the wetness in
my eyes. “I’m…” “Yes.” “But why?” I asked, sobbing despite my best efforts at
controlling my composure. “Why me?” “Who knows?” Mara remarked dryly, an eyebrow raised at me.
“Everybody has to die sometime, so why not now?” “I…” I wanted to say something, anything, but everything that came
out of my mouth was incoherent sobbing as Mara held me in his arms for what
seemed to be an eternity. And after what seemed to be just that, when my eyes
were red and raw and could cry no more did he finally let go. “Don’t worry, little pitiful shadow. There’s a way to make
things right, to be good again. To go home.” Mara said, squeezing my shoulders
as he smiled at me, urging me to smile with his own until I found myself
smiling weakly in the face of his. “How?” “Well, you can go home, but not quite.” Mara said, correcting
himself, his brow furrowing as he watched my hope turn to a sliver of disappointment.
“Let’s just say that you’ll be someone else… someone different.” “What do you mean?” I asked, puzzled at his words. “Reincarnation,” he replied before handing me a large white
candle whose flame flickered strong in the darkness. It was unlike the others
that burned in this hall, for as I watched it burn, its flame danced strongly
and never wavered. “Take this and hold on to it. Don’t drop it for any reason,
or you’ll be lost forever on the old road.” I took the burning candle from him without a second thought,
as if compelled by some kind of primal instinct to do so. It was a large
candle, the size of a beer bottle and it fit nicely into what appeared to be a
candle holder made of dull brass, of which I held on to with my right hand.
Upon the sides of the candle I could see the words “Aya Kurosaki” carved upon
its wax surface, as if the thing was specially made for me. “You’re awfully young to be here, little Aya, but you’ll be
strong, and you’ll make it through the old road.” Mara said as he led me out of
the temple. “And perhaps there, you’ll find your redemption. Come, I’ll walk
with you to the entrance.” After a short while, we reached a red bridge that led to what
appeared to be the beginning of absolute, unfathomable darkness. But despite
the seemingly endlessness of what lay before me, I could not help but notice a
faint glimmer of salvation, lying just beyond my reach as it flashed for the
briefest of moments as a sliver of hope, beckoning me to cross the bridge in
pursuit of it. “Thank you, Mara, for everything,” I said, holding the candle
as I prepared to take my first step onto the red bridge, towards what he called
the “Old Road”. “But tell me something first.” “Hmm?” “Will… will I see her again there? Or along the way, or maybe
at the end?” I asked. Truth be told, I was not sure why I asked. But I did. “Yes,” Mara stated, “You will, for your fates are bound
together in the afterlife. By condemning you here, she too has condemned
herself.” “I see. You know, it may sound strange, but I want to see her
again. For better or worse, I just want to. I want to make things right again.”
I said as I turned to face the darkness that lay ahead. “Listen to your heart, little lost shadow, and I believe
you’ll do what is right.” Mara said, raising a hand to wave farewell. “Goodbye, Mara.” I waved. “And thank you, for everything.” With my candle in hand, I turned to the darkness, following
the sliver of salvation that lay within my heart. But with each step towards my
ultimate destination my every thought wandered back to Mayumi. She was not here
right now, but she would join me eventually, and our reunion would be
inevitable. It was not a question of how but when and in my heart of hearts I
wondered if I would greet her as Sayaka or Ai would have wanted when the time
came to say hello once more. I could not
help but wonder if Sayaka went ahead with her threat, or if this changed her
mind towards Mayumi’s plight. After all, I doubt even she expected this. Then
again, I doubt any of us did, even Mayumi. It may sound weird, but a part of my
wishes she would forgive her, even as another part of me wishes otherwise. All in all, it was a question that threatened to tear me
apart, making the pain wracking my chest seem like a mere annoyance in
comparison. And as I trudged through the seemingly endless dark I wanted to
answer it badly, if only to put my heart at ease, but I could not, and I would
only know when the moment of truth would inevitably come to pass. Which sucks,
since the anticipation was killing me, if that was even possible given my situation. I clutched the handle of my candle-holder tightly, watching the streams of melting wax roll over my name as I walked towards my destination. There was nothing left to do but walk onward into the unfathomable dark, towards my inevitable destination. © 2018 AurafiexAuthor's Note
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