she's in me though my veins have long since collapsed

and i'm f*****g sick of dreaming of death

i want to be the only f*****g thing
on your empty mind.
when you choke down your pills
i want you to think of me
and the way i always choke up
when i lie and say
i love you.

i want to feel the lie on your lips,
the fourth cup of bleach down your throat
while i beg you to stay on the other side
of the phone.
i can imagine you sitting
on the floor,
a cigarette between your fingers
drinking vodka straight from the bottle
and you're so f*****g beautiful it hurts.

i don't love you, but i wish i did.
kiss me hard and let me leave.
we're too fucked up to carry on.

Author's Note

take pride in what is sure to die

Reviews

[Kaybrie93]

Being totally honest, I feel like the cursing takes away from the poetic nature of the piece because most people see cursing as vulgar and not poetic. Perhaps to reach a larger audience it would be best to avoid it.

[:-)]

thank you, but the relationship itself was vulgar. this poem wasn't meant to be poetic, it wasn't meant to be elegant, it wasn't written for enjoyment--it's purely an expression of anger. thanks for your input! but this is just one of those poems that isn't written for others.