I Come Back

 

“Why do I keep coming back for you?” you ask. Well it’s complicated but after thinking about it and even considering the way you keep pushing me away time and time again, I finally know. You are my friend, my best friend, my comrade in this life, and my love one. There is no friend that I have today that I wouldn’t sacrifice everything I have for. Yeah I know I don’t have much and I only have a few friends and even less really good friends but that’s why I don’t quite. In high school I thought that friends are expendable, but I was so wrong. I’m only in my twenties and I have lost too many friends to drugs, life, and death. So why the hell would I just leave you?! I don’t do that s**t anymore!

            Yes, I do have a crush on you and damn it took a lot not to kiss you today but I realized something for once that’s not selfish of me and that is you still love him. Well I guess you always did, I was just too caught up in myself to see that. I see that now and that’s a reason why I didn’t kiss you. I want to see you happy and that’s not going to be with me because you don’t see me that way and nothing I do or say will ever change that. I can accept that, I really can and I will show you by staying by your side as long as I can.

            I know that you do hurt me with little stupid stuff but for some reason I am still stuck in myself and trying to feed off pity. You said that you need to “work on yourself”. Well not to be cocky but you do but I do to and that’s why I stick around. I need to get over myself and need to become stronger than that, you help me with that in your little mean way. I keep coming back because I believe in you and me. You have changed me in little good ways here and there in just a couple weeks. You are such a great person and I am glad to have you as a friend than nothing at all. I do hope this is the same with you and that I can be there when you need someone the most or the least which ever. I will always love you and that nothing can change not you, me, life, death, time, or change its self.

        Your dear friend ATVagner.