English Paper

this was just a quicky so dont b mad.

 

“I know now why I did what I did. I want the attention, yes, but I want that attention from her. It hurts enough for my heart to be at her mercy but it hurts more that she loves him. I can’t change that but why does she like to be around me then, when she knows my feelings for her? Why toy with my heart that way? Does she really consider herself that mean? I really don’t know but I do know my love for her and yes this is love, true love not that bullshit that most people use as an excuse. I do love her and that’s one of the hardest and most heart ache statement that I have had to ever add mitt. It all means that I’m venerable to pain. I have given her the control to hurt me or to love me. The choice is up to her heart now and I wish it wasn’t because you can’t force yourself to love; it just comes to you after you meet the right person. See if I could right now I would marry this woman. That term scares the s**t out of me but I really would. I love her to my death and that’s my truth.” Chad pauses for a moment and then starts to finish typing his final words for his English paper, “love is what one man will search for all his life and never find it. Another man may find two loves but then which one would you chose to make that one. Then when I search for love and find her, she loves someone else. That sucks luck hell in a lava pit! How do I win with that one?! You don’t! You have three choices: one move on, two stay and wait for her to change her mind after five years and three kids, or jump off a bridge after kissing her and telling her you love her always. Those are really good choices I think but which one are you going to chose?” Chad knows his Teacher is going through a rough time but maybe with this paper he will get a better grade in his class and she won’t have to take the choice three.