FriEND or FamILY

Looking in hell to find some self worth.
Is kinda like finding pleasure in giving birth
Impossible, with crushed hopes and dreams
If you have been here then you know the meaning
Friends turning away when you ask for help
I guess thats what it is to be caught up in yourself
But you just sit alone waiting for a chance
Fighting through life gotta take your stance
You learn fast who cares and who lacks
Sure man, your gonna get stabbed in the back
Just keep pulling those knives out and follow plans
Eventually though you will have to understand
Friend is what it implies no matter how you try
There is always a END to a friend, just takes time
So before you have your back scarred like mine
Fill those holes with people on your grapevine
Because unlike friends, family will stay behind