I against She, She against I

If you had once told me of all the horrors that await
I would have trembled made even worse mistakes
But little did I know the greatest battle I had yet to create
Is not of failures nor disgrace but with the one that bears my name,my face

Dispute of all forms is terrible, rightly so
But unspeakable are those where you are both defender and foe
Beware shame and anger will cloud your mind
Heed my warning or forever struggle against its bind

She protects me holding me within a bubble
While everything breaks into rubble
I struggle to break free from her hold
While yearning for the unknown
5,4,3,2,1.... I turn and run into the cold
While she tries harder coaxing me towards the known
Finally braving through the night
I emerge into the healing light
Battered, bruised how much ever I may be
I realized the courage the greatness within me
That what happens in the unknown
Your survival...it becomes your throne

I've defeated her, she who once was I
She smiles not of hate
I wonder why
But apparently this is fate
To sit proud but not arrogant on my own throne
To embrace the bronze not just the gold
To stand when I yearn to roll over and moan
To heal my scars both new and old
Then only will I be worthy to see
How much I can evolve and become a better me

I against she, She against I
Its one Everyone faces, not just you and I
Although we may question why
Its one where we evolve not die

©Anu Elsa Joseph Nov, 10 2017

Author's Note

This is something I just wrote recently after going through a bunch of stuff in life and I know there are alot of people that can relate so I hope you enjoy

Reviews

[Tony Jordan]

Well it's a great title for a start.
The imagery is good too. The premise and setting too.

The tight rhyme scheme loosens a tad which made me stumble twice but doesnt detract overall from the fine poetry. Wouldn't take much (proper setting out of quatrains and maybe centre aligned to conceal untidyness) to make this outstanding.