why loneliness still persists?

“You are way too lonely”, he said.
Yes, I am.
But I did try hard not to reveal this up.
Trust me when I say this.
I try hard every day to hide my inner self
And more prominently try hard to protect
it from externalism
yes, I try hard not to feel this way.
But unfortunately some way or the other
It seems to slowly fade away my plans
I don’t want to go back there anymore
From the shackles, I’ve been released.
Tears roll down my cheeks
And no one ‘s there wipe them off.
This fact makes it more evident for me
To believe over and over again
Yes, I’m alone deep inside,
And nobody could see that
And even if someone could,
Indifference is bliss for them
I’ve always tried hard to hide my emotions
Behind my words
But just realized they are the ones to betray me.
My words marked my story.
Loneliness and insecurities are the ones
I’ve always felt tough to deal with.
Yes, it hurts me for sure.
I’ve always been alone, always
And wonder if this is the way it’s going on to be.
Do not remember the last person I met
Where I didn’t have to pretend.
Yes, I love myself, I’ve fallen for myself.
But nobody does.
Always been losing things in a minute of a heck
Yes, uncomfortable with relations,
Uncomfortable with relations becoming weaker
As it is on the brink of getting stronger
Hence, getting a strong bond,
Is perhaps a far element.
Scared of departing relation.
For once I thought it was on the
Brink of something beautiful
But history repeats itself
And here I stay alone
With the charms of emptiness.