Trapped Behind My Blade

You tell me that cutting isn't right,
I say shut up because it's not your fight.
 

 

Everyday is a battle for me,
seeing less and less of my sanity.
 

Trying to numb the pain inside,
finding it harder to do each time I cry.
 

All the pain inside,
comes at me with one painful strike.
 

Cold and dark my life becomes,
making it even harder to breath with my tired lungs.
 

Blocking the memories that I hide,
not seeing how all my feelings will soon collide.
 

Love and hate,
building up; it feels as though I'm being crushed by it,
wondering if it will ever subside.
 

To my relief I see a glimpse of shinning metal,
that same razor blade that comforted my pain before.
 

The way the light shines off the sharp edge into my eyes,
begging me to give it one last try.
 

The cold sharp blade calls out to my flesh,
one small chance to feel refreshed.
 

If only for a minute,
I'd do it to stop my emotions from crossing the limit.
 

The blade grasped tight in my palm,
sometimes I wonder if this really makes me feel calm.
 

As I quickly slice my skin,
I feel the pain spilling out from within.
 

Tears fall down my face,
as relief starts to take its place.
 

So if you want to ask me why,
this is how I simply reply.

Author's Note

Hmm... It doesn't exactly flow as well as I'd like it to in certain parts, but I still love this one.

Reviews

[Lillian]

gave me the "heebie jeebies" WELL DONE!

[Joseph - Michael]

In the world of the poetry; Nothing can flown, nothing will sound alike, nothing have to be perfect grammar, and so on. So It's a really great writing and I enjoyed it very much so, because I can related to it in some ways. Anyway, all I can say is that it took me a while to understand the last two lines; "So if you want to ask me why, this is how I simply reply" But, I understand now

Other than that, I think it's all good here and, if you don't mind, I'm going to add this one to my list...

[DecemberXSunset]

Well... No worries, people!

I'm totally over that part of my life..

[Albert Freeman]

Brutally honest poem. I think, in a way, the uneven flow and spelling problems helps the poetry. It gives rise to the emotional war inside struggling to understand yourself and this need. I've a friend I'm doig my best to help through something very similar to this. I hope those close to you are reaching out to you and showing you love and a different path. :)

[intangible_soul]

Very nice and brutally honest. You could probably improve the flow by removing some words you don't need.

[Christina-Marie]

I agree with the above writer, the flow was a little off, but all in all it was a great read for me!

[Nykkiicia Cion]

its interesting and a very taboo topic...still sum spelling problems...but good work!

[Ashley Campbell]

As you said, the flow isn't right, but it still has one that adds to the emotions of the poem. There are lingering here. Desperation, anger, sadness.... very nicely done.

A little interesting fact, you and I write in a somewhat similar style=).

~
Silver Wolf

[Alex]

This was really well written! Good job! =D