my thoughts

will my past thoughts distroy me,
can i be fix, lost in my own thoughts when i woke up this morning, last night i did it again said there names with the memories of the past, they play on my soul like a diease playing on the sick, they turn me to black and i hate myself for the thoughts that flow in me, please tell me why can't i just that them go, please tell me why do they keep come back, try to lock them up so tight that they will burn away, don't understand why i can't, please please i hit my knees and ask why, how to remove the diease of my thoughts.

you know i never want to hurt you, never want to lose you, i know if i don't change i will, and that is the biggest fear i have, you mean so much to me, please don't give up hope on me i will change for you i swear, hit my knees again and say you are my light that shines in my heart, that shines in my soul, i just got to remove the thoughts that play on my soul like a diease playing on the sick, i will get this diease out of my head out of my soul,

i need to be fix, lost in my own thoughts today and many other days, hurting you thats hurting me, come shine your light on me, shine it so bright remove the darkness forever, help me remove this diease from my soul, help me remove this diease out of my head, want to change, need to change,

my thoughts play on me like a diease in my head,
will you be my destiny or will my past thougths distroy me?