True love is gone forever.

 So A lot of people tell you "don't hate yourself" its not right.

Well they have no clue to why  I hate myself,

If you pushed away the only person that ever got you,

helped you though everything, That you could call on

Shoulder to help you up, and push you forward

Loves you more then the earth.

Then you just say bye not once but twice

Understand  why i would hate myself

I lost my One true love

it will never happen for me again.

Sure i can have a boyfriend, get married

but it wouldn't be the same, my heart would only be half in it.

I won't even dream of either of those.

Why lie to your heart inside?

What hurts the most is knowing that nothing you can do

to get back your one true love, (He isn't dead or anything)

But doesn't want anything to do with me

Sure we had are fights but want couple didn't

and sure we were both A*s, but no matter what i did

no matter want, All the crazy bullshit, fights, bad words,

Hang ups on the phone, We loved so much of each other.

Now that is gone. I am to blame, I take full credit of this

I didn't phone, or make contacted with him for months

How do you tell someone that would do anything for well in his power too

that you are about to be kicked out, that your now cleaning toilets for a living,

I am a b***h that hates herself. Hates the fact that i lost crazy minded, lunatic

That was brilliant in so many ways.

Now I have to live the rest of my life and i am only 27 years old

wishing and looking back at the love I once had and let go of

I am a fool, that is and always will be in love with him.





I am only but one person that wants the love is lost back

I know that his heart doesn't beat for mine.

So here i am at 2 am sitting at my desk

tear filled eyes, wishing i could just

Disappear into the nothingness i so desire

So i bid the world a goodnight.

Author's Note

This is a blog i wrote but, i thought it be good as a short something story, thoughts please.
Please ignore all grammar.