Selfish

Love is one of the most simply complicated paradoxes in life. Here you are giving yourself to this one person for all of this time and the all of a sudden it just ends. You never even meant to fall for them or for anything to happen but it does. Then it just ends. Theres no clear reason as to why. There’s nothing you can do to hold it together anymore because you can’t force it. They want to leave, something has changed or needs changed and you can’t fix it. Everything you thought there was, is no more. You don’t hate the person but you need to move on because life has to carry on without them. You can’t expect them to just come back when silence has filled the gaps of time between the two of you. You love them but are no longer in love with them. You finally got settled into being alone again and have become okay with that. You’re finding yourself and learning more about yourself than you’ve ever known. You see love and strength when you look in the mirror now. Yet there is loneliness and they are the only one you can think of to call. It’s not the right move and you know it so you stop yourself. Filling loneliness with false hope only causes more confusion and pain. So what do you do? Plenty of time has passed and it’s still just you and you alone. Part of you is still waiting for them, maybe in time they will grow and you will grow and you both will be together in the end. That’s not fair though, for either of you. You deserve to move on and live your life and meet people just as much as they do. So there it is. Your answer. To live. To not fear love. To keep growing. You have to know that what your waiting for is going to come to you as it’s meant to but you have to stop searching for it, especially in places you know it won’t be found.

Reviews

[Samuel Dickens]

My experience tells me that your conclusion is correct. Not knowing how to end the pain is something many of us have to suffer through, and I guess it'll always be like that. Very well expressed.

[Tony Jordan]

To love them but not be in love with them..that is the paradigm shift. Very well said.
Good write!