Falling Up

Is this worry that I feel?

The rapid beat of my heart

the shallow breaths I take.

Feeling defeated,

as though I'm constantly trapped in the corner.

Is this anxiety that I feel?

my eyes wandering

my lack of focus

reminding myself to breathe.

Is this sadness I feel?

My heart sinks as the numbness takes over.

Tears begin to fill my eyes.

It felt as though I was falling with nothing below to catch me.

Would I begin to fly?

I knew right then what I had to do,

for it was my own self that I had to catch.

It came to me then, as I began to soar.

This must be the beginning of my happiness.