Fear of Commitment

Small whispers flood the silence

as your arm swallows the distance between us

Calloused, tender fingers sweep away salted anguish

and we sit silently for a while

Just rocking our weight in time with the crickets

Shudders escape my fragile heart

Erupting throughout my body

Squeezing me tighter, you try to get me to look

Into the eyes of my heartache

Naively coaxing me to pain myself

Heavy breathing and floods of emotion

Come faster than before

My fingers slip off the metal

and I'm thrust off my pedestal

to the rough terrain below

The deep scrapes can't compare to

my wounds scarred inside

So confused you are

of why I'm exhibiting such features

I got so close, too close

to almost letting you in

I pick myself up

with whatever small ounce of dignity I have

Your arms held open for me to fall into

You don't understand the risks

I can't handle it

I need to burn bridges