Who I Am

Home for the Holidays with people who don't know me

Here at the place I love

With Family

Who loves me

 

I can’t wear what I want

I can’t watch what I want

I can’t do what I want

I can’t be who I want

Because of restrictions

I place upon myself

To make sure

That the life I lead

Is one you approve of

I stop myself from

Having what I want

Because I’m scared

Scared that you will disapprove

Scared that you will judge me

So I become who you want

The perfect little girl

Who filters her

Words and actions

To keep you happy

 

Is it worth it?

 

Leading a life I don’t like

Because I’m scared

Scared that you won’t respect

Who I am

 

Is it better

 

To live in fear

That you will find out

Who I am

That you will disapprove

To live a life that,

Thought it brings me

Moments of happiness,

Is not what I want?

 

Or should I become

Who I want

Who I am

Maybe you will love me

Maybe you will hate me

But it’s a risk

That I’m not brave enough

To take

 

Maybe one day

I will be

Reviews

[gypsy scribbler]

If you know what you are, you're already 90% there, even if you are not brave enough to tell them. Just try not to forget it yourself :-)

[Writer at last! Sky ~]

I loved the way you expressed the thoughts so freely in your poem. Even I'm dying to a life that I would love to and like too as well. Your words really touched me a lot. Thanks for sharing this beautiful poem friend :)

[WanderingJane]

YES! I know exactly how this feels I'm struggling with this right now too... I'm slowing coming to the realization that later I'll regret being a people pleaser oppose to the person I know I am... Good writing , I look forward to reading more.

[Ashley]

Thank you very much WanderingJane good to know I'm not the only one out there