Anxiety

I write to get it out.

It’s building.

It gets emptier and emptier as time progresses.

Emptiness makes room for saltwater tears,

But I stifle them

And now I’m drowning.

Alone, isolated, lonely, detached, distant, alone

Alone.

Time is freezing but

I don’t want to be frozen in my saltwater tears.

My demons are inside of me and they are waiting.

Broken, I’m breaking, they’re drowning me.

Eyes closed. Think piano keys.

Black and white, black and white, black and white.

The way they echo in a quiet, white room.

But the demons still call to me,

Singing their tantalizing melody that destroys my music and mind.

Breathe, breathe deeply, slowly, faster, faster,

Faster.

I have lost control but refuse to surrender.

Turn on the face equipped with a smile and

Release myself back into the world,

Knowing fully that I’m not okay

But not daring to say so.

 The music can’t save me anymore.

The piano is rotting, frozen in saltwater,

Helpless and hopeless and becoming forgotten.

What fate awaits me?

Too weak to wonder, I’ll just lay here,

Decaying and drowning in saltwater tears

That I don’t even have the strength to cry.

This isn’t just a battle, it’s a war.

-11:33 pm- 

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

"The piano is rotting, frozen in saltwater,
Helpless and hopeless and becoming forgotten.
What fate awaits me? "
I like the feel of struggle in the poem. I like like the desire to not quit. I like the flow of thoughts and the strong ending. Thank you for sharing the excellent poem.
Coyote

[Rossen]

"eyes closed think piano keys".... invited me to feel more
Good work..

[Sami Khalil]

I have lost control
but refuse to surrender.
A nice write.

[Kaa Na Kalyanasundaram]

Oh...fantastic write. My regards.

[AshleeKayann]

Thank you so much! (: