The Heart of the Matter

I have never been one to wound for kicks,

Slit throats for fun,

Rip still-beating hearts out of chests -

Just for s***s and giggles.

 

No…

 

I paint pretty pictures

With candy coated deceit

And shoot myself in the foot

So you can live your prideful life in peace.

I’ll take the bullets

Through my permeable flesh,

I’ll wear that mask with the sorrowful frown.

 

But you look away

And the guise shatters into truth.

At the heart of the matter

All that remains

Is that it wasn’t me…

It was all you.

Author's Note

Comments? Suggestions?

Reviews

[Lyan]

Ah yes, it seems that many of us are quick to say "I'm sorry", "it's my fault" instead of the other person saying it first to us. I wonder why is that? that at times even when we are not the ones who are at fault still say sorry.why do we feel the need to be the ones to take on the role of being the bigger person.hmm.. thanks for writing this poem and sharing it:)

[Ashira Macy]

Thanks Lyana, yeah I wish I could just outright say "Hey, you are the problem here, not me." I can't bring myself to do that though.

[Lyan]

Well maybe in time you will be able to say it. There are many things I thought I wouldn't say but life has made me become more forthcoming i guess.

[Wórdsmíth]

Oh, that`s quiet deep now. Liked your insights how beautifully you`ve pen`d to make the concept of the marvelous piece much powerful with an incense of your candy heart. Well written.

[Rene Salinas]

Oh as I have read a few of your witings before and I have commented that I felt that "you where" good it comes as no surprise then when you say you paint pretty pictures and it come to re - enforce my steretype painting. Hold on a minute though most people that adopt that attitude are unaware and they constantly let out a "Why me" when I am so good "why do I get treated in this way" yet you say that you shot yourself in the foot interesting. Yet you can see that for every relationship reciprocity is essential otherwise it it bound to fail.

Mike Patton told me once screaming in one of his songs: being good gets you stuffed

Thankyou

[Ashira Macy]

Thank you Rene. There is no use in complaining about it, I just have to speak my truth one way or another. =)

[Benita-Staebell M - Kin..]

You penned this quite well so
beautiful and sad at the same time.



Lovely stanza's lines here I loved them.


At the heart of the matter

All that remains

Is that it wasn’t me…

It was all you.




Blessings. Benita/ kindred poet

[Ashira Macy]

Thank you Benita, it is always wonderful to hear from you!

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

You're welcome. was a Enjoyable read. Blessings. Benita/ kindred poet

[little thoughts]

beautiful ashira !
'Is that it wasn’t me…
It was all you.'
beautiful line.

[Ashira Macy]

Thanks Lioness, I am happy you liked it!

[Matching Socks]

You know, I've always hated that expression 'suck it up'.
Why should I have to suck it up, when you're the jerk?
Great write.

[Ashira Macy]

I agree and sadly, being the pacifist that I am I rarely hurt anyone but myself. Oh well, that is what writing is for right?

[Ruth]

I like this a lot...shows a heart of unconditional love and understanding, we all need to act in such a manner...by doing so, we see reality much more poignantly, become a master of our own feelings, even if we do take more than we should x

[Ashira Macy]

Thank you Poppy, I am glad you were able to relate to this. =D

[Briana O'Connor]

This is beautifully dark. I love the way you express taking the high road while experiencing the pain of not asserting one's self. The pain leaps off the page and creates vivid emotion and imagery. Thank you for sharing and keep up the good work.

[Ashira Macy]

Thank you Briana, I was feeling pretty dark that day for sure.

[Blake Fodor]

wonderful piece. words melting to the emotions . nicely done.

[Ashira Macy]

Thank you Blake!