The Conflict and The Comfort

Written in 2003

 

Just one drink, it could be a small one?
NO!!

NO!!

I…I hate you! I wish you would go away!!

I am here to stay!

AHH!! You don’t let me have any fun!

Is sinning fun?

YES!! I…I mean maybe or…um…ah…no.

You know what is right, so do it!

But if I don’t have one…I…I’ll Loose Control!

But if you do have one I will loose control!

Is that to bad?

YES!!

I promise to come back!

And Repent…Again?

Yeah, Yeah that’s it!

What does it mean to repent?

Um…Not committing that sin anymore?

Yes!  Now do you see why I can’t let you sin?

I…uh…suppose so.

Tell me why you want to sin.

UM…because it takes things away.

Like, what things does it take away?

My…fears…anger…sadness…loneliness.

Does it really take those away?

I…um…don’t know!  I …mean NO!

If it doesn’t take those away, then what does?

You do, but it’s SO hard!

I know, but I am here to help you.

Yes…I know…But, look at my hands, they are trembling!

Why is that?

Because, I really need one, to steady them!

No You Don’t!

But…But…

Look into my eyes dear man!

Yes.

Do I not take care of your needs?

Yes…But…

Do I not take your hand and lead you?

Yes…

Have faith, dear one and follow me!

I…um…I mean…uh…I…I…O.Okay.

I love you child.  I will not let you fall! 

Oh come on I could really use it.
Absolutely Not!!
Please I…I need it!