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I plan to kill myself in December,

I've been thinking about it all year.

But the Summer makes me so sad,

I may not make it to Winter.

A headache,

the kind that swirls around your brain

up and down and up and down

back and forth and back and forth.

The kind you get from laughing too hard for too long.

The kind you've got no choice but to fall asleep to.

What are you to do, when pleasure brings pain

and pain just hurts?

I tried in Summer.

Almost a year ago now.

I'll try again in Winter,

and if all else fails I'll try in Sping.

I'd have tried hard enough by then,

I've always wanted to die in Spring.

I deserve to die in Spring.