When Love Meets Insecurity

I grasp onto the idea that I am not okay
My head plays games when I’m trying my best
I know I can be confusing
And switch on what I say
But I promise you I’m trying
I just want you to stay
I’m scared that once I begin the process of healing
Some emotions I’ve confided in me will
Well up in my eyes
And I’ll cry for hours
And you’ll feel helpless not sure what to do
I hope you never blame yourself for the way I feel
Sometimes I do wish you were more affectionate
And reminded me of how you feel with me being here
In your life
But I don’t want to ask too much of you
Cause you already do so much for me
I’m grateful that you’re here
Putting up with my conflicting mind
Because even my own worst battle is deciding
Whether to cry or smile

I don’t want to go to therapy
Take a pill down my throat
Expecting it to fix everything
I want that pill to be you
My daily dose of medicine
I want you to be my water in a drought
The calm in the storm
The thing I desire when I need it most
I want you to be the one to take care of me
Say I’m beautiful when my tears collect on my pillow
Say I’m everything you’ve ever wanted
When I feel cold and undesired
I want you to remind me that I’m going places
That you see such good in me
That’ll help me a lot
Just wait, you will see