Conditioned

Conditioned.
I think people who are treated a certain way, that's hurtful, mean and disrespectful become conditioned in that manner. People closest to your heart treat you badly like an option, like you don't matter and eventually you become accustomed to that treatment and accept it as your worth. The damage is magnified and then passed along to new people who come into your life without you even knowing you're doing it.
It becomes part of the saying " your past is your past, you should really leave it there." Unfortunately because it's conditioned into your being that it's probably the most difficult part of you to leave behind.
It becomes most unfortunate when the new people in your life chose to not allow your conditioning to become part of their identity.
I will not be conditioned that way.....

Reviews

[Jay Steitler]

I get this and I had this very experience. A lifelong friend from age 7, was abused and mistreated by a recent EX husband. She decided to date me. She had reassured me that her bubbly personality had returned to previous levels. Then she started taking advantage of me. Asking for favors after not treating me all that well, and questioning my feelings for her unnecessarily. She couldnt transcend that "conditioning", and payed the abuse forward to me. Seeing the merit in the facts of your work here, I think its excellent. Easily understood, digested, and to the point.

[Amy]

Thank you Jay for reading and commenting. These were feelings that I was experiencing and still am in a fairly new relationship that hurt.....more than any written word can express....