My Other Half I've SupressedA Poem by Arjun SinghAs I frolicked about all night with my friends as a child, I never imagined what
responsibility was to be laid upon my shoulders, nowhere close to mild. It was to rise up
beyond the masses that yearned glory and fame But felt just short,
for their efforts were just as lame. But I don’t know why
you like to compare me, dishearten me with all your jibes, I’ll do what I have
to, I don’t need your lectures you deliver out of ‘concern’, spare me, pardon
me from all that you describe as unexpected vibes. I never can fathom,
why you overlooked me as I am, as you want to see, clad in my superficial self, And rather accuse me
for my half I’ve supressed, kept tucked away out of grasp, within my heart, on
some desolate shelf. Why you see the
result, and not the efforts I’ve put in, What all I
sacrificed, to rise out over and above this deafening din? How I got to the
point I now stand at, The point that you
had always just dreamed of achieving just stared longingly at other people
getting at. You see my suppressed
half that seeks merriment, You bar me, want me
locked up, leashed, bound and chained, toiling, forgetting enjoyment. Don’t give me this
excuse, that you’ve cared for me all along, But how can you rid
me of my suspicions, that you’ve held my hands all along, not to guide me, but
to ensure my presence among the multitudes, as all around they throng. Why do you overlook
my best performance, that turned out second best? You think I do it
willingly? that I enjoy finishing last, behind the rest? I didn’t just try,
didn’t just put my heart and soul into my work, all solid and firm, Even as you held me
in your palm, at your mercy, to writh helplessly and squirm. Why do you try to dig
out my past, the time I wasted in pursuits I wanted to achieve, my ambitions? That didn’t turn out
to be my present goals, my aspirations. Why do you accuse me
of harbouring my half that I’ve suppressed, that longs for freedoms and
luxuries I’ve never yet enjoyed? You’ve lived your
life as you deemed fit, you can never ask me to abandon it, have it destroyed. I just thank the Gods
for my parents, who never took me just at my face value, my actions, That appeared
somewhat too liberal, too bold, to violent, Who realized they
were my ways to vent out my anger, my frustration, that my shoulders have borne
thus far, with protests, beyond silent. That this pressure
upon me, is just a reaction; to the burdens I never yet protested carrying, But how can I go
about, someone else’s dreams ferrying? They saw my true half,
that no one else ever even imagined I could harbour, the patriot within me, That had patiently
been bearing along thus far, all along, yearning to be free. I don’t think anyone
could have seen it, no one could ever have guessed, That beyond my wild, arrogant
nature, it was my real half, my other half that I’ve supressed. © 2015 Arjun SinghReviews
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6 Reviews Added on June 29, 2015 Last Updated on June 29, 2015 AuthorArjun SinghIndiaAboutJust another teenage, 18 year old guy trying to voice himself.... More of a poet than a storyteller Not really sure if I am good or bad at it.... more..Writing
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