Dear S**t,

Dear Jessica,

Jessica, I would like to apologize for the way I acted.

I'm sorry I lashed out with harsh words.

My intent wasn't to hurt you when you had been nothing but a friend to my husband, 

You helped him in his darkest times, and I am truly thankful for that.

It does bother me, 

sometimes its hard to swallow my pride and accept that during moment of weakness you were the one who showed my husband kind words.

It's hard to admit, but that person should've been me.

I thought I was doing the right thing,

by helping myself and my son.

The one good thing coming from this is he realized coping that way was wrong. 

My feelings toward you aren't anger, 

Im more angry with myself than I am you.

I'm angry that I let him get so unhappy that he felt he needed you.

I'm upset with what happened, but unfortunately we cannot change that.

I do want to thank you for being a friend to him when he needed it.

In all honesty, 

I hope you'll continue to be a friend, without sleeping with him again,

If our troubles ever returned to this point.

I was devasted,

and I lashed out against you and him both,

without accepting that I had a part in this.

If I was a better wife, 

He wouldn't have felt the need to this.

I'm sorry that you didnt get all that you wanted, 

and that he didn't get all he wanted..