Without you

This is a poem I wrote when I lost someone very important to me many years ago

No, No, it can't be true

I cover my ears to block out the news

You can't be gone, you'll walk in anytime

To wrap me up in your arms

and tell me they lied

 

I run and hide, and curl up in my bed

putting my pillow over my head

telling myself it can't be true

because there is no me without you

 

I wake to mornings light

knowing you never came

I grab the phone and dial the number

I know better then my own name

 

Your father answers with a strained voice that cracks

and I know then that your never coming back

my knees hit the floor and my heart screams in pain

my mind shatters and I can't even think of my own name

 

You were my whole world, the other half of my soul

I can't conceive of an existance with nothing but this new hole

I try to move, I try to breath

but my body just lies there, rufusing to be

 

How will I go on, theres nothing left for me

I just let go, and my mind flys on a breeze

to a place where you still are

deep down in my heart

 

Where you and me can still be we