When I Think About You

A Poem by Aries1984

Another poem about how I'm dealing with my dad's passing.

The moment you cross my mind
My world stops spinning in its place
It all goes screeching and starts to grind
To a halt, as in my mind I see your face.

This moment is not foreign to me
As I have been here many times already
A state of somber reality
It's where I start to feel empty.

When time stops and all goes still
And the isolation starts to shroud
I'm mentally withdrawn into a bone-numbing chill
Often times when I'm in a big crowd.

I can't quite seem to figure out why
This world seems to spin so normally
When each time you cross my mind, inside I die
Without you, so solemnly slowly.

My face smiles, yet my heart cries
My world stops in the one that's spinning
And every piece of me that dies
Without you, I do the best to keep on living.

This lonesome grief is stealing me
Like an ugly thief who strikes at night
It looks for areas of my vulnerability
But it also reminds me of why I write.

In darkness though my mind may be
In grief my heart may cry
Though you are now only in my memory
I know you watch over me from on high.

So when this moment strikes my heart
And the chill of isolation pierces through
I sit down with a pen in my hand and start
To write these words, when I think about you.