The Gift

ALove Poem

Blinded by the love and the longing to be with you…
You...my Soulmate, I truly believed to be “The One”
The one I would love and would love me unconditionally
The one I yearned to be with at every moment
The one I couldn’t wait to see coming home & the one I couldn’t wait to open my eyes to
The one I would gaze eyes with for hours in an intense and loving stare
My best friend who would always be there for me, improve me and never judge
The man I did things for I would never do, but wanted to and he would never have to ask
My happiness & satisfaction intensified knowing that his wants & desires were fulfilled
The one I would spend forever with, the one I would grow old with

An experience like no other you gave me, the good, the bad, the gift…
The familiarity of being in your arms, a comfort I knew all too well from centuries ago
As we held our hearts together in ultimate bliss the angels would circle us with wind
The moon, illuminating paths over the ocean for us to eternity
Losing our breath in deep kisses of passion, we just couldn’t pull away
We radiated a happiness one could not help but notice
The connection we had was so profound, undeniable, indescribable
Making love, our bodies would transcend into moments of blinding surrender
An excitement so euphoric, you couldn’t help but wonder if you were drugged
Holding your seed in my body, not once but twice two orchids that would never grow
Fighting your demons tooth and nail with an unbound love, only you could defeat them
Hours and days would go by and there just never seemed to be enough time
Enough could ever be said, little did I know why this feeling resonated
I was oblivious to the thought it could end

Abruptly one September day my dreams were torn away
I felt my world and everything I fought and waited so patiently for had ended
My entire being, mind, heart and soul were put into a fit of shock
My heart beating into my back
As I convulsed in physical and mental pain and tears-I didn’t believe…
Didn’t believe that what doesn’t kill you can only make you stronger
I desperately searched for the answers to relieve a pain I never felt
A pain so intense I felt I might die, I never wanted to feel this again

As the healing process began, over time the answers would come
Once I discovered and believed I became strong once again, stronger than before
There were lessons to be learned and quite a few of them, some already overcome
I realized that in our profound connection, weaknesses and strengths became magnified
Fears, Unresolved wounds from our past painfully opened
Opened to push us to further healing, a conscious choice had to be made
I was ready, you were not as you became possessed by your demons, fleeing in fear

I accepted and believed that you were no longer a part of my life anymore
As I neared complete healing you were back once again
Little did I know the suffering you endured during my healing and what was to come
I did not anticipate you and I in any capacity
Here was lesson one, love and forgiveness…even in suffering

As we progressed into the unknown it was only natural
Natural to feel, want, desire, touch, kiss, love…inevitable
As the 11’s formed and continued to haunt us day and night I yearned to understand
What is the message this greater power must convey?

Life began to test me, realizing with each and every blow I had yet another lesson
I would never have what is truly meant to be mine until each lesson was completed
11, you have my attention, what must I learn and must you choose me?
Am I such a horrible being?
Now I understand, yes it is a gift
A gift that God allowed us to meet in this life to contract with each other
An opportunity to experience a life and love so powerful, so rare
It is how we choose to proceed and evolve from this that will be the ultimate gift

Act, not react
It is time to heal, strengthen and evolve
11…two separate strong pillars that can stand on their own, each complete
Complete and whole within themselves
It is at this moment, when we are balanced and whole
We become two halves of a greater whole

Our souls occupy just a human body that will only carry us physically in this life
But we have stared into each others eyes, the same eyes many lifetimes
The same eyes, a different body
I knew there was something extraordinary the first time I looked into your eyes
Do you feel like you have known me forever? Yes, you have…
Behind those eyes, I can see deep into your soul and yours into mine
I have known you forever, I will meet you again
If we can pass this test of time and growth together in soul, the gift will be ours

My darkness and my light, it is you…
You and you only that can love me so much that it is necessary to hurt me
Only you my twin flame can burn my soul into evolution
A connection that surpasses marriage, it is not til death do us part…
…It is at death we reunite again, a love beyond time and space

I sit here now, now that we have physically parted once more
Each parting a reminder that we both have work to do before the ultimate union
When two become ONE