Loathe

The side of self-doubt

 

I loathe this side of me.

This is the side, I’m scared

For you to see.

The side that made me bleed.

The side that will make you leave me.

 

I’m just a broken girl

With some pumped up dreams.

A less than thrilling imagination,

And some ripped up seams.

 

You’re a breath of fresh air,

That I don’t deserve.

A too good to be true moment,

That I’m not worth.

 

A whirlwind of emotions

I’m not accustomed to.

A proof of happiness in a moment of truth.

 

But I question every move I make.

Take every sigh and make it a mistake.

This must be why I am alone.

Why would you want to call me your own?

 

©4-11-2015 by Ashley Nicole Nordyke

Reviews

[MoriartyMesa]

In my family we have a saying, well Dean Martin first said it: When your opponent's sittin' there holding all aces, there's only one thing left to do: Kick over the table.

[andrew mitchell]

A terrific flowing write Ash. I felt like I was going down a escalator such a smooth ride. The words the emotions were spot on!! :)

[Nini]

You are worthy. You are beautiful...inside and out. Anyone with any amount of sense would want to call you their own. This is beautifully written, the feelings so clearly conveyed, and able to be felt by the reader. We have all had these moments of thought...if we are honest to admit it. Again, my dear...you have written beautifully. You have a gift. Believe in yourself.

[♥ Ari Skye ♥]

Thank you Nini! You mean so much to me! To have support like yours makes me feel worthy!

[Nini]

You are a sweetheart :-) Never doubt yourself!

[AaronFreitas]

Trust love Ashley.... don't push someone away with insecurities and questions. Seems like someone has come into your life... appreciate and enjoy him my friend :)

[♥ Ari Skye ♥]

Thanks Aaron. You're right, someone has come into my life & I love the hell out of him.. lol.

[Cool Girl]

This was so good, and I think that many of us can relate to this. I know that I definitely have felt that way before.....a lot! You did an excellent job describing it!

[....................]

Self-doubt most often leads to the loneliness we all deal with sometimes, especially when it comes to love. Time to kick the daylights out of the loathing and realize that everyone has value and something to offer another. I enjoyed this, Ashley, good write.

[FREE_BIRD]

hmmmm....may my dearest once can understand it.
may GOD shadow them too

[micky]

This is so beautiful.....i love your piece it is truly amazing .....
Well done :) reminds.me of someone i know

[♥ Ari Skye ♥]

Oh thank you so much!

[micky]

No problem:)