Hurting

A Story by Ari_isnt_important

I'm tired...

I'm so tired

physically and mentally

What's the point of life when I'm fighting to be happy?

fighting to be loved and seen for myself ...

Ive lost myself so many times that now I don't know who I am.

nothing helps...

no one cares...

I scream for help , yet no one hears,

I hurt everyday, yet no one sees,

at the end of the day, I'm still a 13 year old girl who just wants true happiness

I watch my family mentally and physically fall apart

I watch my happiness slip away and my goal and dreams become less believable and hopeful

with divorced parents who are both absent, its hard to find myself, siblings moved out, grandparents who don't understand

being homeschooled, I feel like I'm in a box

trapped and forgotten by the ones I love most

yet every time someone hurts me I let them back into my life , unhealthy relationships come from loneliness

no one believes in mental health nor depression

I question my existence, I look in the mirror with disgust, remembering peoples hurt-full words and comments, I cant eat because of those few words u think don't affect me, now I feel stupid and worthless, and guess what...those words came from family members....

I used to chase my dreams and goals until I started chasing happiness....then death and now...nothing

now I'm just confused and hopeless, waiting for someone to hold me and ask if I'm ok, to ask if I've eaten, to ask if I'm hurting.

again.....I'm just a kid who's confused and scared.