Unlucky people

4 years in a long distance relationship.

So, yes im writing about my love life experien. Its not gonna be the usual LDR situation,, for us seems so different and complicated.
He and i have been communicating each other from a far, like 5 hours away for 4 years, and believe it or not, we never met each other in real life, only after 4 years we finally met at the airport, i remember it was only 3 minutes of seeing eaach other at the airport coz i had to rush to my company vehicle who Fetch me to get me in my accomodation, i remember how not so normal i was when we fisrt met, we only had our frst holding hands and hugs, and thts for 3 minutes and done, our love story was really precious, i mean we fight but we never talked about threating each other about breaking or ending our relationship over some fights, we kill fire with water so it doesnt explode. I can really say we were so inlove with each other he would call me often and never a day we wouldnt communicate, we've been through a lot of things though we are far from each other, now tht we are in the same country and same time, evrythings seems so low.
The thing is, he was asking me long before, like thrice already to Marry me, but i am Not ready, i still have to support my sibling's studies, he is willing to wait but his family can't wait any longer, his mom is alone at his home, his sisters already married and staying with their husbands, he is the only son and he supposed to get married now, i dont wanna be selfish too, i dont want his mom to be alone for so long and i cant just get married now sonce im supporting my siblings, i couldnt say yes to him yet, we are too much stress, he cant let his mom be alone, so ive been telling him, that i'll forgive him if he'll marry other woman :) though it shts hurt. He was crying so hard and dont knw wht he's gonna do, now im expecting him to be married when he gets his vacation this july 2018 and im dead hurt. So he does. He said he is stupid tht he can't do anythng, he must prioritize his mom, and his mom needs someone at home. While he is away workin abroad,his mom couldnt wait any longer, anf also he is already 28 and im 26.
Now we still communicate but im learning to keep distnce from him, its like trainin my self coz his gonn be a married man soon,,, with other woman :)
I guess this is life, wht i felt is that our love story is a joke.
Wasted 4 years.
Ive had enough crying so he does.
Now im. Just waitng till he goes for Vacation and gets married.
I dont know whts gonna happen next,, sometimes im hoping for a miracle.. This is all for now