Sins of Forbidden Love Pt 2A Chapter by Tsukin ArchangelWhat's up with Dios, some of his backstory-Betrothed- Sins of Forbidden Love Pt 2 ... and if
through despair one sings The
parable of darkness swells free A light I
can no longer see A spirit
tainted beyond belief My heart
is tainted My dreams
impure Regret
colors my fingers Loathing
tarnishes my soul ... Dios's fingers moved across the strings,
strumming them, his voice a depressingly melodious swell over each sweet, pure
note the instrument intoned. A crystal pinging noise; it was clear and strong,
a drastic contrast to the words that left his perfectly pink, expertly puckered
lips. Like the naive child it sung out free of sorrow, free of the burden that
darkened the singer from which the song drew its power from, its soul. The
notes floated and melded, harmonizing in a synchronistic union, one that went
beyond that which could be easily seen. That which could be understood with the
naked eye. Or even those who believed themselves experts of the laws of the
spirit. Indeed it was as if a cloud stood over him,
forcing him to bask in a spirit crushing, mind numbing, tear inducing gray. One
that made all colors seem to blend, to melt into pastels, sucking away the life
and jubilation that at one time might have been attributed to him. Though it
can also be said (and would be true) that even in his better days he remained
caustic and narcissistic. It can only be blamed on the fact that everything was
handed to him on a silver platter. A mistake the royals were blind to fix, in
reality blind to even see. No, they had been too busy running the
kingdom, fulfilling everyone else's desires: "Oh Mi'lord please spare us
some seed for our farms." "Oh! Mi'lady my wee little welp is ill,
please spare 'im a doctor!" Ever the caring dictators, the positive
monarchs, the ones that ruled the people into a golden age. Yes they had been
too busy for poor little Dios. The King's B*****d. The Mistake of the Kingdom.
An embarrassment. A well kept secret. Those days had been the hardest for the
boy. It wasn't like the King and Queen had
purposefully neglected him, it just slipped their minds. They left him to the
wet nurses, the maids, the servants and butlers. They were the ones who
attended his every need, fulfilled his every desire, filled him to the brim
with anything his mind could think of. There were no limits, no end to what
could be accomplished with a few choice words... well when he finally learned
to talk. That was the other thing, for the longest Don
and Sally feared him mute and dumb. He did nothing but stare into space and
scream. They thought his lack of mental development meant him less capable than
other children. Another reason to keep him hidden. A subconscious truth that
the royals played into against what reason told them. In all actuality it was just the only way Dios
knew to get his parents attention. All he wanted was to be loved, to be
noticed. Held. Sang to. Spoken to. By his parents. No amount of material wealth could mask that
single base urge. It can be supposed that Dios's seemingly uncharacteristically
self centered ways can only be explained as another form in which the now
walking and talking older boy lashed out. An act. Another way he felt he could
gain attention. For that's what he craved; by this time Triton had been born,
another distraction from himself, and Triton, unlike himself, was not a
disappointment. Time passed and slowly yet surely Dios did
more and more to try and show himself worthy of attention. He showed an
interest in the arts, excelling in music; he would try to perform for his
parents but they would always brush him aside. They didn't have time for
trivial things like entertainment. It was not becoming of a royal to be so
invested in comedic interests. It was not befitting of a future king (for at
this time he still was the heir). He should be spending more time learning
strategy and combat, less time in the clouds and looking pretty. There would be
no time for that in war. It broke Dios's heart it did. It hurt all the
more knowing that he couldn't truly hate his parents either. They never beat
him, never denied him his clothes or make-up or any of the other myriad of
things most would deem "queer" or "unusual" or
"unnatural" for a boy to desire. He couldn't hate them, because...
they wouldn't listen. They never listened. Only Shep would. Dios stopped playing and wiped his eyes with
the back of his hand, baby soft smooth skin brushing away the salty liquid
sorrow that threatened to spill from the confines of his seeing oriphices. And
returns the guilt. The stabbing pain that lodged itself in his chest like a
poisoned bolt. A thing that ate at the inside of ones body and mind until they
went insane. He betrayed his family yes, but his family hadn't ever really
cared about him. All of them but Shep, and Dios had ruthlessly stabbed the sea
prince in the back with hardly a second thought. How could he? His shoulders began to shake, a deranged smile
on his lips. What was wrong with him? Was he going crazy? Ha! A bubbling laugh.
Forced through sealed lips. He laughed through his tears, a hysterical sounding
psychosis of the spirit. Or perhaps the mind. It was easy. Obvious. He knew
why. Because he was jealous, because his youngest brother had something he did
not. He had love. Shep'd always been loved; he was father's favorite, he was a
favorite among the servants and even his mother had a special place just for
him in her heart. Dios placed the lyre in his hands shakily to
the side, resting it beside him and bit his lip. Blood welled where tooth met
flesh, pushing, ripping, puncturing through sensitive nerve endings and tissue
to the soft insides below. He still couldn't help the anger that swept through
him at the thought of everything that went Shep's way. He could do no wrong,
and wrong refused to follow him. Or even show him its blasted face. Yet
everything Dios did ended in disappointment or an upturned nose or a
downtrodden expression. What did he ever do to deserve that? Live? Red hair hung low over his face. Dios's mouth
set in a trembling line. An aura of darkness settled over him. Wind shifted the
pages of his notebook, ruffled through his clothes and caressed his cheeks. It
made him feel even colder. Emptier. Just like the city in which he resided. Geata Ifreann had claimed his soul. © 2014 Tsukin ArchangelAuthor's Note
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3 Reviews Added on January 30, 2014 Last Updated on January 30, 2014 AuthorTsukin ArchangelPalmdale, CAAboutHmm let's see~ I'm 20 (wow I've had this account for a long time) I'm a poet I'm a story writer A singer An amateur Voice actor An anime enthusiast An avid gamer 100% Unadulterrated Me! I wri.. more..Writing
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