Death of the PhoenixA Poem by Chris JonesA poem I wrote about the highs and lows of life, suicide, and the unceasing struggle between good and evilDeath of the Phoenix
I sat in a chair one
day and began to meditate. I cherish this
regretful meditation; For its truth, I found, Was quite devastating. Sitting upright in the desolate
room With pictures of
unattained goals attached to the walls, I thought to myself, “Who the hell wants to
live forever?” And more importantly, why? Loudly dormant in my mind Lied a phoenix. But in this
meditation, Its colors had Dampened. There was no red
passion flame, Only omnipotent black. No joyful yellow
sparks, Just leprous white. No unique orange
embers, Only bitter-truth
gray. Its wings spread
through my mind. Noticing its beak I
began to ponder…. “How do you kill the unkillable? How do you murder Joy? How do you erase all goodness? Passion, love, and happiness?” Crying pitifully, the titan showed me that, Select few are born to be denizens of light. Innocent by nature, and incapable of malice. These souls light up the world with their smile, They relish on all things passionate; love, smiles, jokes, happiness, warmth, and making love through once
lonely nights. In the midst of my meditation I found myself a denizen. I don’t say this for praise; I’m just speaking of a condition. Of GREAT JOY, PEACE, AND WARMTH WITHIN EVERY SOUL. As I think to myself, and ponder beyond my miserable being,
I think “Has mankind lost this?” It seemed that with the passing of time Responsibilities are mounted, and therefore Stress latches on, not like a fly, but an overbearing Leech, hungry for your strength, but more so for the warmth
of your heart How it strives for its sustenance by taking what makes life
enjoyable, livable, and even tolerable. The titan carried me through my self-imploding mind, I watched, as the ashes burned happiness through our journey’s wake. I came then to realize that Joy is an affliction, for it never leaves. It thrives within the heart and beams throughout the body. However joy comes at ONE regretful price, one of which would explain why the world is so cold. For with joy comes everlasting despair. There is no gray, no median between The fires of Joy and the icy contempt of Despair. When one takes hold, the other resides, Dormant, waiting to take your
body I have joy, but what I desire most is peace. I long so sweetly for the ending of all wars. I prayed for all violent confrontations to end, whether they are commenced by the sword, the gun shell, or
the heart. I ached for a median, a rest between their confrontation. I needed them to stop. I agonized, wanting
one to win. To be honest, …I rooted for despair. For I thought, “What is joy to only have despair waiting in
the midst?” “How fitting?” I thought. When the chasms of darkness seep into the soul And maybe so my hands that will help me end this. Maybe, Just maybe, then I will have peace and everlasting joy, Stemming from the end of all external and internal
confrontation. How beautiful was this magnificent titan. Joy incarnate. The Dead Phoenix. And I realized the answer to age old conundrum. “How do you kill the phoenix?” How do you destroy The blazing titan of fiery joy?” Let its flames burn bright in a world of cold shoulders, malcontent, greed, malice, and broken spirits. Let it burn and spread warmth and light to the Darkest reaches of the mind, the universe, and soul of God. ….Then it will be done. For the climax of fire is to be extinguished. Then all there will be is ashes, Glorious, Beautiful ashes. And no life will stem from them, Because all of it has been used. Warm ashes are coals damaged, But not burnt out to exhaustion. Still retaining the ability to ascend like Christ to the heavens above. Cold ashes, however are a different story. No life stems
from it. I desire peace, so I don’t choose to warm them. In the reaches of a self imploding mind, I stand in the midst of cold ashes with fire in my hands. © 2012 Chris JonesAuthor's Note
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3 Reviews Added on November 26, 2012 Last Updated on December 2, 2012 AuthorChris JonesGreenville (pelzer), SCAboutI am an aspiring author/storyteller who loves to use words and stories to convey my creative abilities. My biggest/first project that I'm working with is a science fiction/Superhero book series call ".. more..Writing
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