Travels outside time/Inside of meA Story by Rohan BasuVisions and dreams seen in a disjointed state of mind, resulting from an existential crisis.Everyday, it seems like a little bit of me is fading away. With the passage
of time, I feel hollow, the memory of something that isn't there, that hasn't
happened, tugging at me. A thirst that cannot be quenched, a hunger that cannot
be satiated, a desire without an object, a pain without origin, that won't
heal. I was reading. Then suddenly, I'd closed the book, and I didn't even know
when. It's like, something felt wrong. Has been feeling wrong. For such a long
time now. Disjointed, everything seems to be. I feel like I'm in a movie, that
I'm not supposed to be a part of. I forget that, sometimes, but then again
there are times when I realise that. It feels like two planes which are not
supposed to meet have joined together, without synchronising. Parallels have
met. There is no balance. My vision get's clouded, and it seems like I see the
world through broken glass, tainted with the colours of time, a time that
hasn't been, and a mist which carries a fell omen, akin to that of the breath
of Erebus. Yet, this cloud doesn't seem to be a cloud. This, is what seems
real. What feels real. Slowly my five senses grows numb, and 'reality' dims. A
new cloud forms then, a blur of people, a host of sights, sounds, names, scents
which seem familiar, but slowly they too, drown like the fading whistle of a
train going to the land of forgotten dreams. Then I feel the summons. Like
voices, from the outside, and voices from the inside, calling. Voiceless
voices. Is it possible, that you recognise the unknown, and yet it remains
unknown? A smile forms on my lips, a mirthless smile. Everything fades, and
turns black. The broken glass remain, shining in lightless light. The mist, it
grows heavier, and suddenly, it sounds like water is flowing. A trickle, which
turns into a stream, and then, the roar of water coming down from beyond
Olympus. The feeling, is like being drowned in Styx, Acheron, Lethe, Phlegethon
and Cocytus at the same time. Only, I am not breathless. Screams, wails,
whispers of hatred, and howls of anger as strong as tempests released by
enraged Stribog buffet me. The glass rains down, cutting deep, and all those
feelings enter. Fear, pain, sorrow, anger, and hatred. The mortal flesh, it
seems, is ripped apart, and it feels like a thousand shinigami tears and cuts my
very being, with swords made from the bones of Nyx, and the fell melody born of
Chaos plays around me. All thoughts, all emotions, come to an end. Existence
ceases to be. Then, a fire so hot, that it feels heatless, and so dark, that it
swallows darkness, is born - inside of me. The flames reach higher and heat
spreads like the rays of a ghost sun, an Apollo who has been baptised by the
Void. I find myself, standing, in an immaterial plane, a void. My eyes burn, my
throat feel dry, from what feels like the smoke of cheap cigarettes, and my
tongue is parched. Everything is still. No apprehension, no hopes. Just, a state
of being, within 'non-existence'. Then suddenly, something else appears, in
front of me. It flickers, and slowly, materialises. A lake, out of which arises
a stone, upon which lies a a metal slab. I walk through the water to the stone,
and lift the slab, 'neath which lies a sword. I take it in my hand. Straight,
yet curved, it seems. I smile, the smile which one smiles after completing a contract.
Somewhere, a wolf howls. "Angels banished from heaven have no choice but
to become demons". My rage burts forth. The soundless echos of pain and
hatred, resonant, grow inside me. Images form around me. Silhouettes of dark
light, coming to consume me. I grip my sword, knuckles turning white - and I
slash out at everything. I hear their screams. I laugh, and I cry, at the same
time. Then suddenly, I hear a voice. "Turn back! Look beneath the
stone!" Upon turning around, the stone is no longer there. In it's place,
I find a inscription, and something tells me that it's only there for me, that
even if another were to venture into this astral plane, they will never find
it. Again, I hear a voice, and this time, I remember the past. "Promise
me". I look down at the sword. Tears that will never form, dry up inside
of me. A sheath appears. I take it, and I sheath the sword. In my mind, another
voice speaks "I have long since closed my eyes... My only goal is in the
darkness." Then, I come back, to reality. Yet.
The darkness remains, and I dread the day when the memory will speak no more,
and I forget the promise that I made. © 2014 Rohan BasuAuthor's Note
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1 Review Added on February 6, 2014 Last Updated on February 22, 2014 AuthorRohan BasuCalcutta, West Bengal, IndiaAboutPen, Paper and Ink. And within this trinity, you find emotions, ambitions, tears and smiles. Angels and demons, elves and men. Stars and the sky, the wind blowing in the leaves, the murmuring sigh of.. more..Writing
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