I Love You

Mother, I love you.

Yet every time we speak,

panic courses through me

and from your sight, I want to flee,

as our fragile relationship becomes even more weak.

Mother, I love you.

But you're hurting me.

So many nights I spend in tears

Kept awake by all my fears,

Yet all my pains you cannot see.

Mother, I love you.

Put down the pills, please.

I can't watch you do this anymore.

You've become someone you would abhor.

And I can't stand by while it consumes you, this disease.

Mother I love you.

But I just want to be a kid.

You forget that I'm the child

And use me, while you're off running wild.

Knowing from experience that I'll do anything, I always did.

Mother, I love you.

But now I have to go.

It kills me that I have to have to leave

the guilt I feel is thick enough to make me heave

But, you'll soon forget about me, I know.

Mother I love you.

I don't think what I did was wrong.

But you hate me;

You refuse to set my guilt free.

And without your love, I don't know how to be strong.  

Reviews

[redflutterby]

The child pays for the sins of the parent...it is so often the case. This is a powerful poem... and has a lovely flow. The repetitive use of line "Mother, I love you" gives each stanza more impact. Reminding the reader of the speakers inner turmoil. While we may love the one that causes us pain ultimately the decision to walk away is the only one we can make. Fantastic poem.

[Saddam]

Mother I love you.
I don't think what I did was wrong.
But you hate me;
You refuse to set my guilt free.
And without your love, I don't know how to be strong.

That's very emotional piece of write. But at some place I was little thinker but from your view it was right. A very heavy heart pen.

[ATG]

A very powerful and well written poem. There seems to be a lot personal bits in this which is a good thing and it flowed fairly well. Overall, a good poem.

[erika]

Wow this poem really has a good flow to it.

[ksbadyal]

This is so powerful and moving. The repetition of "mother I love you" is so bittersweet-as the reader, we want so badly for your mother to return the sentiment. Beautifully written.

[Honey-Bee]

Gut wrenching poem! Mother and child relationship, so often we hurt the ones we never wanted to hurt. Children are often the indirect victim of parents tomfoolery that was never intended to hurt them.
As parents we want to protect our kids from harm and too often we hurt them never intending too. Nicely written!

[abluehorseandflowers]

The more I read your poetry, the more I want to read your poetry. And in your poetry, Arabella, is your peace. Keep exploring, keep wrestling, keep writing. It's not fair this burden that is your's, but it IS your's and it can be your greatest strength rather than who you think you are. Joyfulness my friend... S