Battle Shield part 1

about regret and shame and anger. i think every human can relate to this. tell me what u think anyway!!

Remembering the rain. And the pain. when things will never ever be the same. when you have to raise yourself once again, from the flames of shame. but you can never forget that day. your mind is a blur and in a daze. There is a spirit in you waiting to get out. But there is a voice within that justifies the doubt. 

Crawling in your shell. and thinking of the hell. and yet you died as well. they will never understand. even if you show and tell. take me back to that day and i would say. Leave me alone we will fight the demons in the dark. but i will never part. to an angel i created out of this messed up art.

You never know the tears i cry. there all internal but i have to compromise. The secrets and lies i tell when i pretend im fine. all i want is another time. to change the things i didn't do right. The choices i was pushed into at great heights. I never got out alive i just carried on walking, intill i found the light. Yet i cant touch it. no matter how hard i try. things are always fucked up along this life line. 

And i feel like i am ready to breathe. One last time. But i must define the details in time. And look back to when everything was just fine. Arrows are being thrown by someone nobody knows. Promises are sealed within the untrusted deal. And the scars are showing on my battle shield. 

I can see the writing on the wall. and the devils want me to fall. And i must risk it all. To break from the chains of the past and deal with how fast the years go passed.