My little Angel from Above the one that i will always love

recently i have been through an abortion, and this is me unloading all my emotions about it into a poem.

Your little hands and heart were making a start,when i felt the beat of your heart i knew i was never alone in the dark.

when i found out you were there i cried because of the tribulations that we would share the bruising that we would bare the pain that we would wear and the tears that would tear any hope of getting anywhere.i did nothing but

 

 care and imagine you with small shoes on the stair and having a teddy bear, with little ringlets in your hair although you would be the reason the sun shone bright you would be the reason i would read to you at night. and walk down the street with your hand held tight and teach you all the wrongs from right. 

 

You would be a beautiful angel in our arms, you would be my one and only lucky charm, you would have sparkerly eyes and a cute button nose because you would have the power to break the woes, you would be the single rose amoungst the thorns you would be the dreams in the night that made everyone sleep tight.When i lay down to rest you were moving as if to test the security of your nest the safeness of this mess.

 

But when i went into the room i knew your time would be up

soon, your eyes i would never see, because you would be dead to see the pain within me which was begging a plea which was crucifying me.I did nothing but care yet i am the killer that brought you there and for that i can not bare, the pain in the aftercare. when i came around i found that tears were rolling down my face that there was something missing from my place that the emptiness i faced a little soul had fallen from grace yet flew up in the chase,and left me with no wings 

 

to fly up to you and say goodbye, because the connection was broken that i should of never opened. And sometimes i cry for I made you die,sometimes i cry because

 i know that if i was strong we would of carried on, we would of shown them we could

live a life and prove all of them wrong, 

 

because you were part of the song. So i prayed to the Angels and i told them to look after you and give you all that you deserve because you will always be the beautiful soul that i will hold.when i felt  the beat of your heart, i knew i was never alone in the dark. when i found out you were there i cried for a little because i was aware of the trials that you would bare, the horrible tortures that i would share even though

i did nothing but care and imagine you with small shoes on the stair and having a teddy bear, with little ringlets in your hair.

 

 although you would be the reason the sun shone bright you would be the reason i cry at night. And for all the promises i ever made im sorry for leaving it this way, i wish i we could of made it another day. 

Reviews

[SmileBig :)]

This is phenomenal, beautiful, and terrifyingly sad. I hope your suffering comes to an end soon. And don't forget; you are strong.

Much love

[critic h]

very deep profound with all the feelings poured. as i read i started having a hallucination of the events. the ending is as good as beginning. 1 thing where i felt a bit uneasy was the very long title. It should not exceed 5 words.

[ArabellaMortimerHendry]

i wanted a long title because that is the best way i can describe him/her that never was.

[Matthew. A. Kellow]

Such sadness behind the written words