I Remember

okay, this one is only okay.

I REMEMBER

Why would you make me die

If you were going to cry

You say you need me back

But I will haunt you 

Your justice is lost

We used to be civil

But now that is gone

The power consumed by you

Filling you with greed

It flamed and fueled all of your need

Then you get tired

You went to me 

And my kindness backfired

You loaded

And shot

A hole in my heart

Not just my body

My heart

My soul

My being

You sat on a log

Long gone from the friend I used to know

Staring out at the forest

Where you and I used to frolic

We were kids

We were innocent

We were oblivious to the world around

When you find that rod

That evil force of pure white anger

You had picked it up 

It was joke

As the years passed on

Your father taught you how

To use it

To justify your vile actions

When I found

What your father had done

I ran

Ran

And ran

When I came back

Ten years later

You were just like him

Evil

Vile

Wicked

You were different

You were numb

Your father had squashed you

He stomped out your spirit

Your being

Your soul

Like a fire drowning in a river

You were a mere shell of what you had been

You were no longer my friend

You were just like the others

I had hoped

I had prayed

That you would turn out fine

But those grueling monsters

did their job

They turned a boy

Into a nightmare

Squashing his flame

And replacing it with a corrupt hunger

Derived of happiness

You came to me

Your long-lost friend

Who no longer cared

you came

came with that firing rod

and you thought

that if you took it

we could be friends again

I turned you down

you got mad

no longer understanding

no longer a boy

Shot that hole

straight through and through 

as I fell

you caught me and said

What have I done?

I am dead.

I closed my eyes

as the life faded away

it was dark

blissful

serene

I followed death willingly

wanting life to end

my friend

my enemy

and now

my killer

what has society done

to make people so fragmented

what have I done

to deserve this

now 

as i sit

as a ghost

a being

a goner

I remember

I remember the good

I remember the bad

but most of all

I remember the horrible