Part Four: NS

Nicko's side of the story

We rode a jeepney and I can't calm myself. Something bad is really happening to Ara.

 

--End of Sean's Narration--

 

It's been a bad day for me. I don't know what I'll do. I might be too late. She might not be breathing anymore by the time I get there. My friend, Jessie is right. I should have talked to her and settle things. My mistake is that, I acted. I showed her how happy I am with my friends, I slapped it into her face that I'm better off with out her, and I thought that it was a nice thing to do. I know that I'm immature, I'm hard to understand. 

 

I met Ara on my first year, first term , we were blockmates. I was so shy to talk to her. I don't know why, I'm still searching for the perfect opportunity. I love the way that she smiles, it lights up my world without her knowing, She's somehow, my inspiration. I got that chance to get her number and text her, my texts were as long as hell. Sometimes she replies so short, but that's okay, at least I'm texting her.

 

I wanted to be with her all the time, I left my friends, just to be with her friends. I don't want to admit it, but she's the only reason why I'm going with them, I have to make some lame excuses but who cares, I'm with her. I was inlove with the idea of being in a relationship. I did my efforts , great efforts just for her to say yes to me. The problem is, she's trapped in the past. She's very cautious and fragile.  I think that she doesn't trust me at all. On my side, it's hard, but all I can do is to understand her. 

 

There was a time wherein we didn't talk, I missed her so much, I want to hug her and tell her my story. She listened to me, and accepted me. I gently hugged her and kissed her. I gave her the first kiss of her life. I know that that kss changed everything between us. She doesn't look at me the way she looks at me before. I got her eventually. And it was the best day of my life. I don't know how to start, but it's a great thing that she's mine. 

 

Everyday, I'm treating her like a princess. And it hurts if she jokes about the breakup. I don't want to lose her. I love our kisses, and if by chance, I'll marry her. We planned things. I said that I'll be with her till we graduate. We'll have our business, stable job and get married. I know it's too early to think of those things, but nothing is impossible.

 

Until a week came. She become so moody, her mood swings most of the time. She's emotional. I don't understand why. Until there cama a point wherein I got hurt. She compared me to one of her ex-boyfriends. I don't know how to react. It's just a bitter pill to swallow. After a few days, I found out that her carreer has been dissolved. I tried to understand her , but she's just so impossible. I kept my distance from her. We we're not able to understand each other, so we decided to end this.

 

I don't want to have any contact with her anymore. My desicion is final. I'm choosing my friends now, Yes, I know it hurts her so much, but I have to do this. Maybe I wasn't really inlove with her, maybe I'm just really inlove with the idea of being in a relationship. Days passed, I can see her smiling, I know it's fake but I have to prove to her that I'm happy with my life.

 

That was the biggest mistake of my life. I didn't know that he has a cancer. An uncurable one. And her life span now is very short. If only I knew, I'll be more mature to understand things, I won't make it hard for her. I should have swallowed my pride. 

 

At this moment, all I can feel now is regret. I've been visiting her for 2 years in the hospital, she's in a deep coma. I'm praying that one day, she'll wake up. And she'll sparkle again. As I open the door to her ward, her friend, Terence was there together with 3 guys. Who looks familiar. They looked at me, I remembered them. The one who is in the same store , the one who I bumped into, and the one in the LRT. 

 

The tall guy, kinda chubby and handsome came to me

" My name is Jan, And I believe that this card is together with that paper bag the you are holding" He said

I took the card from his hand and thanked him. He stared at me, it seems like he knows who I am and What Ara and I had.

 

"Call me Nicko, The three of you must be her ex-boyfriends, The reason why she's so fragile" I said

"You're right, we are. And we regretted it" Jan said

 

The other two doesn't speak, they are just staring at me. I placed the stuffed puppy on her side and read to her my love letter. I know it's stupid but I have to, hoping that I'll wake her up with this.

 

The guy with the jacket stood up, and went outside, I wanted to know who he is so I follwed him.

 

12:00 Midnight, we were at the rooftop, I introduced myself to him and I found out that his name is Sean. He looked at me with tears on his eyes and took a small box out of his jacket and opened it

"You know, this is the ring that Ara wanted her whole life. I didn't expect that someone like you would come along her way." Sean said

"Yeah, I can call her mine, but it's still you who she searches for everytime were together" I said

Sean continued to cry. I feel his pain, regrets and mistakes. I touched the ring , because I was the one who promised Ara to give her that. 

"If Ara wakes up, give this to her, You deserve each other. Please. Take care of my Queen, I trust you." Sean said

I hugged him without any hessitation and consoled him. He never stopped crying, until his phone vibrated, It was Jan, he asked us to go back because something happened.

 

--END of Nicko's Narration--