Joy Becomes Pain

This poem is about an ending a very painful one. Sometimes it is hard to let go even when we know it is for the best.

 

Your gone again and no word once more

Are you gone forever this time it feels that way

You decide when we will talk and for how long

You can have your controlled world I want no part of it

I want a man I can count on to be there

I want to be there for him when his world falls apart

Not kept like a secret locked up in a box

I feel the pain deep in my soul

My heart is breaking shattering into a million pieces

I want to scream to let it out

Tears roll down my face as I write

For a love that was not meant to be

Is this karma if so I have paid the price

Such joy he brought will not be soon forgotten

He will always be in my heart

I wish, I wish was not meant to be

I fell in love one summer’s night

From the first picture I felt a stirring in my soul

He took my heart in his hands and kept it warm awhile

He gave me back my dreams with all his playfulness

Fond memories I have so many

To feel so alive again and to know it is possible is worth all the pain

To feel love so strong when I thought my heart was frozen

Was he real or only the fantasy in my mind

My heart says don’t give up my head wars with it

Logic tells me it is not real

I long to touch him to feel his lips to feel his touch

All else pales in comparison to how I feel with him

Logic and reason fly out the door the moment he comes in

Is this just lust or is it love the mind can not begin to unravel

What is this madness that stirs my soul so much so that I can not think

I savour every moment we had and the feeling he awakened

I know its possible once more to have the dream of what can be

One more step closer to the one who waits for me

My feelings overwhelm me so much that I know its not healthy

I give in when I need to take as stance

He turns my whole world upside down

Every time he goes away I feel such lose

Not knowing if he will return or be gone forever

Love does not do this to another

Love makes you more considerate of others

Yes with love you can forgive once, twice and even the third time

I will not let my heart be hardened again

I want more than this I know its out there

To long I spent in emptiness a barren and cold place to be

I want to live with love and happiness and will continue to search for it

I am willing to feel the pain of my heart breaking

For I know it will heel and be whole again