When you don't know if you can go on

What I do when I don't know if i can go on....

So, I know a lot of people have wanted to give up, and I get that, I've tried to commit suicide before, and I've cut a few times...That may seem personal, but I'm over it now...still hate my family, but I don't try to self-harm anymore because of it, or because of jerks at school....I just don't...

And you know, most girls my age...well, pretty much all girls, try to hide their insecurities under a mask of makeup...and the boys, they hide their insecurities behind trying to act tough, which also makes up for some immaturities, but not all....to me, wanting to give up, it's an escape, and a way to get out of the line of fire that causes so much pain....and, it's also just like an angel wanting to go home...that's a quote I found...and I believe it, a lot....

And I guess when you really think about it, we're all angels...God just calls some home earlier than others...because he misses them, or he wants to release them from the pain...we don't know until we come home, what his true intentions were for us....whether our deaths were to change someone, or to make an impact....we don't know until the time's up...