Dance of Death

"It is the supreme art of the teacher to awaken joy in creative expression and knowledge" -Einstein

“If there are people you haven’t forgiven, you’re not going to really awaken. You have to let go.”

-Eckhart Tolle

Fuzzy thoughts

ought

to be harmless

    naught even

but, a misty mind

rains treason

demons draining

what I believed in.

 

 

Baggage binds

truths defined

weakening beacons

behind blurred lines.

 

 

“Knowing” isn’t showing

which way the wind blows

so trust must guide

around the lies

keeping cognition afloat.

 

Frustration raging

beneath my breaths

following faith’s clichés

wallowing in hollowness

of today’s malaise

ache of awakening

a dance of death.

Author's Note

working on my dance steps

Reviews

[emmajoy]

Incredible words, incredible thought. Strange how moving on can be crippled by the load of what was. Yet even so, returning seems to be the thing to do. Defiance in the face ot pain ? No extra dues to pay, no side.stepping from society, accept and be. and be.. more, A dance of death is weighed down as down by tattered shrouds.. the past wears the skin light, frivolous, daring.. we are what we keep hidden/ Perhaps

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Spoken with a healing voice and one who has known pain but offering such eloquence in the beauty and refrain of forgiveness. Simply lovely!

[Chris]

It's coming up on a year... hope all is well. Miss your voice.

[AprilRN1210]

I am well, thank you for your thoughts and your comment :)

[Einstein Noodle]

and a difficult dance it is says i ..Aprilk!!! don't know how i missed this ...only 5 months ago!!!! shame on me ...this is so unlike your poetry ..so dark..yet the resilience of perseverance seems to thread its way throughout ....and choosing words like fuzzy, and blurred soften things a bit to me.... your two closing lines are jam packed ...i am left as reader on the cusp of the new and the old ..just the magic of forgiving and letting go to unbind one to past hurts .... love to you and i sure miss you around here
E.
ps. i am retired .... yeah!!! would love to hear how your RNship is going ... message me if you like! :)

[AprilRN1210]

I am so sorry it took this long to respond! Thank you for your review and your thoughts! How is your retirement going? I’ve stayed SO busy lately, but have been writing a little here and there, just haven’t shared any of it :)

[Einstein Noodle]

yahoooooooooooooooooooo ...a blessed day for me April ... you are around the Cafe' :) sure have missed you and your sizzle ... i love retirement ... i think of co-workers and patients i worked with from time to time but not in the sense i wish i were back ... nooooooooo not at all ;) do you hear from our dear friend Freida?
E.
ps. i wish you would share some of those poems if you would like....

[Tate Morgan]

You know carrying the pain of old regrets and inability to forgive others eats at ones soul. ate corrodes the vessel in which its stored. Not the person upon whom its poured.

[AprilRN1210]

How true Tate, it only hurts the one holding on to it. I appreciate you taking the time to come, read, and review. I hope all is well :)

[Tate Morgan]

You are welcome

[redzone]

well April, I have always held that dancing on the edge, or even just dancing, especially if it on the head of the one who hurt you is sooooooo satisfying... er... well perhaps not what you are talking about.... but there is a quote by some famous person (no not me) that goes something like : "you don't know how far you can go, until you have gone too far".... and with lines and ideas being blurred today, I think it is best to dance over the edge in order to get closure, find the truth, or even just have a fun Saturday night out...

have I mentioned that I love your poem April... well I do and about that dance.... yes please... ;0)

[Lydia Shutter]

No one should be permitted to rent space in your head, April. In order to move on, we must forgive....which does not mean we have to have a relationship with the person who hurt us to begin with. Well written. Lydi**

[AprilRN1210]

Thank you Lydia :)

[Trace]

This almost feels like a dream that leads to endless confusion and unmistakable wonder as you wake and think to yourself... What the hell?
Then you get up and start your day with it in your thoughts but for a fleeting moment

Enjoyed this.
Trace

[AprilRN1210]

it does feel like that doesn't it? lol
what the heck for real---seem to be asking that a lot lately.
I am glad you enjoyed, thank you Trace :)

[jacob erin-cilberto]

this reminds me of that battle some of us have with religion---at least the organized kind...lots of blurred lines...like a poem that just can't be translated clearly.
i experienced this...and love to dance.

j.

[AprilRN1210]

one of the blurriest for me definitely, and aren't those the best ones?.. the ones that tickle the edges of your mind..they make you stop and really think.. to dig in the layers and dance ;)
mmmm dancing, yes!
thank you, Jacob-