~Forgiving and Forsaken~

~Forgiving and Forsaken~

A Poem by AprilRN1210
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“What we have done for ourselves alone dies with us; what we have done for others and the world remains and is immortal.”

Arthur Pike


 






 

 


 

 

 

 

Lights are flickering in this darkness

drowning my soul in heart-breaking dread

left choking on SCREAMS of agony, “take me instead!!!”

shrill of phone, slaughtering spiritual thread

the call…. impersonal…..cold…..

…………“your brother is dead”……………..

 

 

The earliest memory, soothing snapshot

of me holding you, tiny little angel stained

without a mother, thrust into the same devil’s domain

sharing my chains of sorrow, torturing and INHUMANE………..

yet rainbows of unconditional love exchanged

your bright light lifting, allowing exalted refuge

………….so warm and comforting in a life of pain…………

 

 

I surrender my tears and anger

letting go of resentment, hate and despair

forgiving wicked ways of the world

for blatant refusal of unanswered prayers

light may be gone, but my love I declare

………may you be at peace with the angels up there……

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


© 2015 AprilRN1210


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Pax
so sorry for your lost, my friend... this is such a heartfelt tribute, your love is felt through the words you've expressed here. Your love is greater than what he did in the past... with that its all that matters for him and prayers for him to be at peace with the angels up above... simply beautiful!

Posted 10 Years Ago


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AprilRN1210

10 Years Ago

our love is greater than anything, yes.. thank you for your warm, sweet thoughts and prayers.. I app.. read more



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moving and heartfelt.
I can only imagine how hard it must be. i join you in your prayer: ………may he be at peace with the angels up there……
loved your poem, hate the incident.
god bless
:)

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AprilRN1210

10 Years Ago

words cannot express how much I appreciate that.. thank you... ((hugs)) my friend..
Pushkar Prabhat

10 Years Ago

you are welcome........take care.
:)
It is a very moving poem April:) Your Brother be proud of it as you wrote from your deepest of heart:) My dear I cant say it will be easy, I can say you have memories and that is one thing no1 can take away. In death comes life , sometimes its not how we wish to see. My deepest thoughts go out to you and family within this time.

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AprilRN1210

10 Years Ago

that they can't... i have those memories to carry with me.. thank you my sweet friend.. I appreciate.. read more
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ron
I am sorry for your lose April.
I wish I had words to comfort you at this time.
As long as you remember him he shall not be forgotten.

may his heart rest with yours in love.

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ron

10 Years Ago

I hope I touched you in a good way April.
AprilRN1210

10 Years Ago

that you have my friend.. thank you...
ron

10 Years Ago

You are most welcome Dear friend.
sorry for your loss... a heartfelt write and beautiful tribute for your brother...

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AprilRN1210

10 Years Ago

Thank you Fran.. it means a lot to me for you to take the time and offer me such sweet sentiment.. I.. read more
April, I'm so sorry sweetheart. I had hoped for better news. My heart and my thoughts are with you.
I wish I could be there to hug and hold you. This poem has moved me to tears. Stay strong beautiful girl.
((((((Hug))))))

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

AprilRN1210

10 Years Ago

Thank you... I had hoped too... I just hope he wasn't scared and alone... I hope he knows that I wou.. read more
Matching Socks

10 Years Ago

Aww, sweetie, my hugs are all yours for as long as you need them.
xo
AprilRN1210

10 Years Ago

thank you...
I'm sorry will no bring him back to you but I still am...

Life will go on sounds good but in the moment it is not exactly the comfort you seek...

My condolences are solid and true but will not do much if anything to ease your pains...

In this moment I fear you will not read this for some time, but you have more pressing issues at hand.

Know this; you are a wonderful person from the tip of the iceberg I have seen in both all your works as well as out other chats and while I will not placate you and say I understand your pain I am willing to listen, any hour, any day, should you feel the need to just vent. I know I have said this before and your place right now I can not imagine but know that I care not if you cry, scream, etc. - this is about your pain, your feeling and not mine. Heck, if I were closer I would gladly offer my shoulder to cry on or punch as the need you feel changes. Regardless the time passes, you will find this door always open as I have said before I rarely if ever close those I open.

I'm trying to not get long winded with this but alas, I must be true to myself and let the words flow lest they hold myself back as one can't help if they themselves are brought down by their own demons. I am far from perfect and probably still a relative stranger but know I am in you corner - your wish, if I am able in any way, is your command; it really is that simple.

Take care, grieve and remember the good times. Yes, they say time heals all wounds and I have a fence-sitting attitude about that really as I have my own wounds that while not healed and far less deep in impact I have learned to focus the energies in other ways. Just know you are not alone and reach out should you feel the need - there are those that care that will help in any way they can should you ask.

May peace be with you and your family in this time; we will be here when you choose to return.

Posted 10 Years Ago


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AprilRN1210

10 Years Ago

your offer and friendship are greatly appreciated right now, thank you... it means a lot... honestly.. read more
Wynter Ignatius

10 Years Ago

No problem my friend and I can understand a failure of words - you have far more pressing things to .. read more
AprilRN1210

10 Years Ago

thank you again..
This is not a mess at all, incredibly moving, and it is far better than most people would be able to do in your shoes... I just feel, sick to my stomach thinking of you and what you are going through right now. I am sorry that the call... had to be that way. You really show the beauty of your soul with your last stanza, such power in you that few people would have... And I adore the quote that you used on this one, very fitting... this is such a powerful tribute, and to you it may be a mess, but to me it is raw, and agonizing... and beautiful... Words cannot express how I am feeling right now... I know that to you he was more than 'just a brother'.... And of course, I recognize the significance of the song... Hang in there April... :(

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

AprilRN1210

10 Years Ago

Yea.... Figured you wouldn't,.. Ughhh
I know...and thank you
Nusquam Esse

10 Years Ago

If you really need the distraction... I can try... it will be a bit tough; but less than an iota of .. read more
AprilRN1210

10 Years Ago

your brain is too big for me to compete with at the moment... normally I would jump on that...
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DJ
No better fitting tribute,than this open and honest expression.

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AprilRN1210

10 Years Ago

thank you DJ. I tried.. brain won't work right, I wanted beautiful words but hurts so much this is a.. read more
DJ

10 Years Ago

Getting out the raw is good,plenty of time to refine,when you have had time to process and work thru.. read more
AprilRN1210

10 Years Ago

Yes, you are right... Just gotta get my head back on...

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