Help.A Poem by VincentSomething born from my experience with mental illness.
I feel like I'm waiting for something that never comes
That hectic beating of drums, that off kilter heartbeat Steady and background; Where's my convalescing sound? Where's my unbound honor in defeat? Trying to claw it's way out of cyclopean nightmare That's where we'll meet... Where my words carry no meaning, images of devildry Make my silence deafening, staring at this revelry Playing with carbon copies, skies backdrop technicolor Pattern downcast Rebel happiness skating past an outer crop Of heads held high we outlast And my life, as it too passes on before me in this time I've realized that all my dreams were just my fears in disguise... That all my hopes, my familiars despised... But I looked onward with one eye And looked behind with the other ever still Breaking down, sapped of my will I look to the sky For my comforts, take me west in my distress Let these thermals salve me, ever more afraid Of my new venture I partake, my qualms fade With the horizon as sea devours Sol I seek to find my own soul, retake my own life By the pen or by the sword but never by the razor blade Nil are the odds and my twilight demons never fade.... The light that once led me is now dead and gone Far from my sight; it left me behind for me to find my own way And as that eleventh hour mist settles the hell hounds come to claim me As the stars twinkle and shine I gaze upon Old Star the ethereal Descends to save me from something all too real Regret and denial, sinister, choking and stifled Too proud to admit that I couldn't slay this beast on my own I realign my mind, hand me another stone bitterness trifled A self help mediator turned dead eye skilled and demeanor sown No one's asking for you to fix me, just be a paricipant © 2014 Vincent |
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Added on June 3, 2014 Last Updated on June 3, 2014 AuthorVincentAnson/Abilene, TXAboutI'm average, I think. I'm only here to express myself and to get exposure. I just want people to read my writing and pull SOMETHING from it. I'm sorry that I don't review much; I just seem to be too h.. more..Writing
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