eating me away

  Everytime I think of you,
   look at you
   speak to you

  It eats me,it eats me from the inside

  the thoughts and feelings of

worthlessness
abandonment
betrayal


If I was what you wanted
If I was beautiful
If I was worth something,even a penny

Would I have been hurt?


If I felt worth something I wouldnt have let you back

If I was beautiful I wouldnt have suffered

If I was what you wanted it wouldnt have happend


Eaten alive like snail attacked my tormenting ants.

The suffering will never end.

Author's Note

I wish I never suffered this pain.

Reviews

[Apple Newhouse]

I am now fully alive

[Jason Ahlers]

To author's note:
I wish no one ever had to...

[fireblossom]

Sad poem. A poem of growth? One hopes so. A passage of experience perhaps. A good poem.

[Bare trees]

Relationships can be hard, suffering through one can be torture. Sometimes people make decisions they wish they could change. Writing is a good way to express yourself an you've done that here.

[h d e rushin]

suffering like the contention in nature, never ends...thanks for sharing .

[Kyle]

I'm so sorry Sam....... This is terrible

[The White Wolf]

I wish you wouldn't have suffered it either. I know that pain myself. Then we learn to stop listening to others and start listening to ourselves. Belief is a powerful thing. It hits very close to home for me. Thank you for your honesty. Namaste.