I am not okay

I’m feeling depro

Accept me for who I am
Completely inadequate
I think, therefore I am
my one and only advocate

Sound mind is for the rich
It’s utterly luxurious
I’m the simulations’ glitch
I share the cat’s fate, I’m curious

I’m emotionally insufficient
Quit trying to figure me out
I was composed so different
I’ve got sensational drought

My subconscious‘ got the wheel
She does what she wants to
She tells me how to feel
I don’t cry when I’ve got to

I’m plagued with this dilemma
I speak sad, I’m fluent
I want to get better
But I don’t know how to do it

Inside it’s all compressed
till it’s as tall and high as mountains
I’m so f*****g depressed
Lets turn my coal into diamonds

I’d gift Empty with this ring
She’s always really been mine
In tides of noir sea we drift
Until the morning I die

There’s things I can’t and less that I can
My dark hole of a void is perpetual
Now accept me as I am
Completely unacceptable

Reviews

[barleygirl]

Even tho you write brilliantly about depression, to me this does not sound like a depressed person, becuz it's far too witty! I do not think a poem about depression needs to be dreary & boring, but many are. Yours is full of interesting ideas, juxtaposed creatively, not to mention sophisticated rhymes. I have been depressed half my life & I"m usually too stupid when I'm depressed to write a clever poem like this. I love the way you play the words "accept" and "unacceptable" off each other with impact. I'm sorry if depression is your plague, but at least you are very good at making diamonds out of coal! (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Rama]

Aphitenza,
Very nice projection of the state of yourself! Well, please note that once you are accepted as you are, you will feel comforted and secure and that's when you will find the wheel turning up and things will turn positive and that positivity will then make you more and more secure!!
Good going. keep writing!!
Rama